Shades of Darkness

[Shadow]

i haven't formally trained myself before now because i've always dismissed my abilities as a coincidence. as far back as i can remember whenever i've entered or left a room, the lights always flicker or go out. like i said before i dismissed it as a coincidence. i thought it had to be faulty lightbulbs or something. but recently, the effect on the lights seems to last longer. it's not just lightbulbs, but sunlight too. i opened my blinds today to let some sunlight into the room and to my surprise no sun shone thorugh. there wasn't a cloud in the sky and my room gets direct exposure. i walked out of the room and left the door open; the minute i stepped out of the doorway the room brightened up. the further i walked away from my room the brighter the sunlight got. i walked back into my room an' it got dimmer an' dimmer. WEIRD!!!
if anybody could help me identify what happened an' how i could devise some sort of training regimen to control it, i would greatly appreciate it.

[Stealth]

umbrakinises as far as i can tell, that would seem most logical. unless your into electrokinises that might explain the lightbulbs, but the sun? unless your amazingly good at pyrokinises (which you probably would have noticed by now) to the point at which you can dim the sun (which btw i dont think is possible) then it is umbrakinises.uhmm never had any expirience with umbra and the only thing i can think of is going outside and making an area of shade somewhere. the thing is that there are so many other factors with light that its hard to comeup with an excersice. with a lightbulb you could be using electrokinises and with fire pyrokinises so outside using light from the sun would seem most logicall.
EDIT:btw nightshade we share the same birthday

[Shadow]

thanks 4 the tips...i wasn't sure how i should catergorize my power in order to practice with them. but now i kno' an' knowin' is half the battle(G.I. JOE)
i think i'l start by practicing with EK an' somehow try to incorporate it into my *ahem* UK training.

[Shadow]

so i just tried a short energy gathering technique that i usually use to put myself to sleep. i lie on my back an' block out all things around me so that i can focus on my breathing. after about a minute an' a half, i felt the palms of my hands an' the soles of my feet begin to heat up. i never realized i could gather energy that fast before. i'm excited to see what f-x i can produce with said energy.

[Shadow]

so today i tried the same energy(NRG for short) gathering exercise as last night, but today something weird happened. instead of goin' for the 5 minute exercise, i opted for a full half-hour. just like last night the energy gathered pretty quickly. since i had longer to practice, i figured i might try something different. just like last night the palms of my hands and the soles of my feet started to heat up. i tried moving the energy from my feet up to my hands to increase the amount. nothing happened for about 5 minutes, but shortly after i felt a slight tingling sensation in my legs. my feet began to cool off an' my legs started to heat up. i did it!!! ;D the energy was moving up my legs. as i focused on moving the energy to my hands, the tingling sensation increased an' the energy was moving faster. i achieved my goal of moving the NRG in my feet to my hands. ;D ;D i could feel the heat in my hands getting hotter. i tried using the NRG to form a psi-ball(here's the weird part), when i moved my hands closer together they seemed to tingle even more...but they were no longer hot. my hands had turned cold to the touch. the closer i moved my hands together, the colder they got. when i seperated them, they started to heat up again. i repeated this exercise for about 5 more minutes. the same thing happened each time.
i am thoroughly confused as to what happened. if anybody has any ideas, pleas let me kno'

~Nightshade

[thoth]

Please, never say umbrakinesis again... that is not a kinesis-- it would be psychokinesis or telekinesis to the effect that you are redirecting light away from yourself...
Other than that, what you are describing is very peculiar...
You know how there is good and evil, matter and anti-matter, ect...
Well, it sounds like you might be the reverse of normal people, whereas most people exite energy, you deplete it. It sounds along the lines of psychic vampirism, but it is defenitly not that-related, but not quite...

[Shadow]

so this whole thing i have goin' on with light is startin' to get on my nerves. since i can't seem to be in the same room with any type of light source with/out it goin' out, i took my experiments outside.

i sat on my back porch which gets direct exposure from the sun. i didn't do anything...i just sat there. nothing happened! the minute i started to do my energy gathering, the porch started to get dimmer. i looked up and there wasn't a cloud in sight. i ignored it an' continued to gather my energy. as usual, the palms of my hands an' the soles of my feet started to heat up. instead of trying to form a psi-ball i decided to do something a lil' different. i focused all the energy i had gathered into my right hand. the heat an' tingling sensations were focused into my right hand. my left hand felt normal.

i placed my left hand on the wall and nothing happened. i palced my right hand on the wall an' the spot where my hand was seemed to go dim. i blinked a couple of times to make sure i wasn't seeing things. for sure, i wasn't seeing things. the spot on the wall was going dim. i put my left hand back an' the light returned. i repeated this a couple of times to make sure it was 4real. whenever i put my right hand on the wall, the area around my hand went dim. now somehow i'm repelling the light away from my hand, or my shadow is expanding to the area around my hand. which ever one it is, i'm starting to like it. now if only i could get a handle on the whole "lightbulb thing".

for now i'll keep doing experiments with sunlight, but i think i'll start practicing with electrical light sources.

~Nightshade~

[Shadow]

So I tried meditating today...haven't done that in a while. after about 5 minutes of sitting in silence, i noticed that my room was starting to go dark. it got cold as well. i tried to get up to get my blanket, but i couldn't move. all of a sudden there were 3 figures standing in front of me. each one bathed in a different color light...one purple, one, blue, one white. i couldn't make out their faces-- my room was too dark. they just stood there watching me. all of a sudden there was a flash of white light and they were gone. i was back in my room sitting in the same spot. i looked at the clock and it was still the same time as when i started meditating. i looked at the clock again and realized it was time for me to check the mail. i go outside and the first thing i see is 3 little girls playing. one had on a white shirt, the other a purple one , and the last girl had on **pause for dramatic effect** a blue shirt. they all just looked at me. it didn't hit me until I came back in the house...WEIRD!!!
were the 3 girls i saw playing the same faceless figures?
what happened to me while i was meditating?
is it possible that they were trying to reach out to me?

[bdpdgoku]

I didnt pay attention enough to tell if there were 2 other people but i know i saw a person almost like me in a red glow. Im not a girl so its iether we didnt see the same thing or you may not have seen 3 girls.

[Stealth]

nightshade can i ask you how you meditate?

[Shadow]

i focus on an object like a picture or a lit candle until i start to "trance out"

[Stealth]

oh ill try that i gues what i was doing wasnt meditation, but it was relaxing.i would just breath less and less per minute untill i blacked out, id keep on repeating somthing over and over like "remember tonight's dream" over and over and i would rmember it but it never helped me ap.

[Shadow]

me doing AP was probably a mistake, but the next time you meditate, i suggest that you keep your breathing at a steady rate. it can't be good for your body to be blacking out all the time.

[Shadow]

trained some more with light today. pretty much the same effects each time, but with slight variations. i gathered all the energy I could and focused it in my right hand(since I'm predominately right handed). I used the collected energy to try to affect a nearby electrical light source. with my left hand, I removed the lampshade. I then placed my right hand over the bare lightbulb. as I moved my hand closer to the light, it began to flicker. the nearer my hand came to the bulb, the dimmer it got. I decided to release some of the energy stored in my right hand and recapture it with my left.i did so until i felt that they were equal. with the decreased "power" in my right hand I placed it over the lightbulb again. once again it flickered, but it got brighter. I placed me left hand over the bulb and as usual, it flickered. I placed the right hand over it as well...to my surprise the flickering became faster. i released the gathered energy from both hands around the lightbulb...loe and behold, the bulb stopped flickering and then it went out.

[Shadow]

so i'm experiencing some down time with my powers. i couldn't even form a simple psi ball.
I tried an energy gathering exercise...again, nothing happened.
last but not least, to clear my thoughts I tried meditating. for some reason I was unable to focus. mercury must be in retrograde or something 'because my powers are acting waaay funky today. hopefully tomorrow i'll have better luck.