Post by Brilenus on Jan 26, 2008 14:22:30 GMT -5
To begin with, I will mention that my memory is rather lacking in many places, due to things that have occurred. This will limit how much I can tell you about myself.
You may hear me refer to myself as an insane, paranoid, stupid fool at times while I am on the chat room. This has good basis in fact. I was forced to become paranoid due to school and the many (uncommon) dangers there.
I was born on May 9th, 1990 in a small little town named Ridgecrest. I was born three months early, and more or less given a zero percent chance to live. However, I managed to live, as you have probably noticed.
Even from the start, I was incredibly different than most people. I focused more on reading and learning than I did on anything else, and I ignored others around me unless I could learn something useful from them.
This led to a few… Problems… when I was going to school. Through the years, many people have attacked me in school, and many have even tried to kill me. It seems that being different is enough of a provocation to cause extreme hatred in many people. I do not care about what is “cool” or even other others think of me, and I rely on logic and reason. These things caused many people to dislike me quite a bit. I was always called stupid and foolish by everyone I met. This is due to the fact that I do not fit in the common society of “Stupid = cool, smart = dumb idiot” and other such common thoughts.
Through the years, I have been almost killed in many ways by people who felt that my indifference to their antics was reason enough to harm me. People have come at me with knives in school, tried to bash my brains out with large rocks (the type that are the size of your chest) and other such objects, tried to drown me several times in swimming class, and even tried to run me over in their cars. Nothing like walking home from school to see someone zip out of the parking lot and go screaming off the road headed toward you…
These kinds of events occasionally force me over the edge into fits of rage however, and these are not at all good for the people attempting to harm me. Typically, it takes two or more years of people attempting to beat me up every day to trigger a fit of rage in me. Once I enter that state, however, the person who caused it typically ends up in the hospital with multiple broken bones, or some rather nasty damage due to razor sharp objects being wedged into joints and broken off. Luckily for other people, I have become much calmer in the past few years, so such fits of rage never occur anymore.
Due to my desire to learn, I often teach myself things. This has also led to many problems, namely me learning nothing for six years in school and instead teaching the class while the teacher was busy. This also created a great deal of hatred toward me in my fellow students, as they seem to have a problem with people who like to learn. It is even worse in such situations when you are teaching the teachers better ways of doing things, as I often did.
In my life, I have had a rather interesting education. I went to elementary school in Ridgecrest, California at Faller Elementary. I do not recall it’s original name, but a pilot named Faller experienced a mechanical failure as he was doing flights over the area, and his plane was falling toward the school. Instead of saving himself by ejecting, he stayed inside the plane until it hit the ground, thus saving the lives of everyone in the school as he guided the falling plane away. The school renamed itself in honor of his actions.
After elementary school, I was allowed to come back here to Jeffersonville, Indiana. Here, I went to River Valley Middle School, and had a rather eventful few years with everyone trying to kill me again… Other than that, not much interesting happened there.
After that, I began going to Jeffersonville High School, where I am currently in my senior year. Last year, I also began going to Prosser School of Technology right after high school, as there is a program they have set up to allow free transportation between the two. Thus, I am going through required courses in high school, and then going to a technical school to do computer security, networking, and repair. I got my A+ certification while going to Prosser, and this allows employers proof that I understand a computer well enough to replace parts inside it, diagnose basic problems, repair corrupt operating systems, and do general computer maintenance.
This year, I have also begun going to Louisville Technical Institute as my choice of the college I wish to go to. Thus, I spend anywhere up to sixteen hours a day at school of some sort. I am attempting to attain an Information Systems Security degree, along with a Cisco Networking Administrator degree.
Additionally, I first came across the idea of magic/shielding while reading books at school. Anne McCaffrey does several books that lead one toward such things – the Talent series of books is the main one I found to have such things within.
Shortly after I began reading about magic/psionics, my mother began telling me that I would have to learn to shield myself. I just kind of ignored this, as it is impossible for it to be truth, right? However, after a year or four of being bothered about it, I finally decided to begin learning and see if it was real or not. Then, I began to piece together things I had heard, read, and seen. This led me to believe that it might actually have been possible at once point, and then the possibility faded through time. Thus, I began to check all things I could about magic and psionics.
That course of events led me to run across several sites full of false information, and then eventually into PsiPog, where I followed a chain of links I do not recall until I ran across PsiWorld. Due to my rather passive/defensive nature, I naturally picked shielding as what I was going to become good at right off the bat. However, I ran into problems at first – my first orb of energy took me a month to make. My mind was still stuck in the patterns that others had forced upon me – that I was weak, stupid, and could never do anything right. Intrigue helped me fix that problem however, as he let me try making things around him, and telling me if they were really there or not.
From that point onward, I just continued to experiment, and every now and then went back over my old experiments to see if they still had the same result. I found that some things just do not work if you are not powerful enough, or lack the required knowledge.
I still have yet to begin believing that magic/psionics is possible, but I have seen far too many things to simply label it coincidence. Thus, I am always working with both, yet believing in neither. If it were not for the fact that I have been told what I am doing over a hundred times when the other person has no real way to know, I would be one of the people thinking that all the people here are idiotic role-players. However, things have been proven to me well enough that I accept it as truth, even while not believing it.
(The rest isn't done yet. Will post it in a few hours. This was just the general overview of my life, and still missing a few bits.)
You may hear me refer to myself as an insane, paranoid, stupid fool at times while I am on the chat room. This has good basis in fact. I was forced to become paranoid due to school and the many (uncommon) dangers there.
I was born on May 9th, 1990 in a small little town named Ridgecrest. I was born three months early, and more or less given a zero percent chance to live. However, I managed to live, as you have probably noticed.
Even from the start, I was incredibly different than most people. I focused more on reading and learning than I did on anything else, and I ignored others around me unless I could learn something useful from them.
This led to a few… Problems… when I was going to school. Through the years, many people have attacked me in school, and many have even tried to kill me. It seems that being different is enough of a provocation to cause extreme hatred in many people. I do not care about what is “cool” or even other others think of me, and I rely on logic and reason. These things caused many people to dislike me quite a bit. I was always called stupid and foolish by everyone I met. This is due to the fact that I do not fit in the common society of “Stupid = cool, smart = dumb idiot” and other such common thoughts.
Through the years, I have been almost killed in many ways by people who felt that my indifference to their antics was reason enough to harm me. People have come at me with knives in school, tried to bash my brains out with large rocks (the type that are the size of your chest) and other such objects, tried to drown me several times in swimming class, and even tried to run me over in their cars. Nothing like walking home from school to see someone zip out of the parking lot and go screaming off the road headed toward you…
These kinds of events occasionally force me over the edge into fits of rage however, and these are not at all good for the people attempting to harm me. Typically, it takes two or more years of people attempting to beat me up every day to trigger a fit of rage in me. Once I enter that state, however, the person who caused it typically ends up in the hospital with multiple broken bones, or some rather nasty damage due to razor sharp objects being wedged into joints and broken off. Luckily for other people, I have become much calmer in the past few years, so such fits of rage never occur anymore.
Due to my desire to learn, I often teach myself things. This has also led to many problems, namely me learning nothing for six years in school and instead teaching the class while the teacher was busy. This also created a great deal of hatred toward me in my fellow students, as they seem to have a problem with people who like to learn. It is even worse in such situations when you are teaching the teachers better ways of doing things, as I often did.
In my life, I have had a rather interesting education. I went to elementary school in Ridgecrest, California at Faller Elementary. I do not recall it’s original name, but a pilot named Faller experienced a mechanical failure as he was doing flights over the area, and his plane was falling toward the school. Instead of saving himself by ejecting, he stayed inside the plane until it hit the ground, thus saving the lives of everyone in the school as he guided the falling plane away. The school renamed itself in honor of his actions.
After elementary school, I was allowed to come back here to Jeffersonville, Indiana. Here, I went to River Valley Middle School, and had a rather eventful few years with everyone trying to kill me again… Other than that, not much interesting happened there.
After that, I began going to Jeffersonville High School, where I am currently in my senior year. Last year, I also began going to Prosser School of Technology right after high school, as there is a program they have set up to allow free transportation between the two. Thus, I am going through required courses in high school, and then going to a technical school to do computer security, networking, and repair. I got my A+ certification while going to Prosser, and this allows employers proof that I understand a computer well enough to replace parts inside it, diagnose basic problems, repair corrupt operating systems, and do general computer maintenance.
This year, I have also begun going to Louisville Technical Institute as my choice of the college I wish to go to. Thus, I spend anywhere up to sixteen hours a day at school of some sort. I am attempting to attain an Information Systems Security degree, along with a Cisco Networking Administrator degree.
Additionally, I first came across the idea of magic/shielding while reading books at school. Anne McCaffrey does several books that lead one toward such things – the Talent series of books is the main one I found to have such things within.
Shortly after I began reading about magic/psionics, my mother began telling me that I would have to learn to shield myself. I just kind of ignored this, as it is impossible for it to be truth, right? However, after a year or four of being bothered about it, I finally decided to begin learning and see if it was real or not. Then, I began to piece together things I had heard, read, and seen. This led me to believe that it might actually have been possible at once point, and then the possibility faded through time. Thus, I began to check all things I could about magic and psionics.
That course of events led me to run across several sites full of false information, and then eventually into PsiPog, where I followed a chain of links I do not recall until I ran across PsiWorld. Due to my rather passive/defensive nature, I naturally picked shielding as what I was going to become good at right off the bat. However, I ran into problems at first – my first orb of energy took me a month to make. My mind was still stuck in the patterns that others had forced upon me – that I was weak, stupid, and could never do anything right. Intrigue helped me fix that problem however, as he let me try making things around him, and telling me if they were really there or not.
From that point onward, I just continued to experiment, and every now and then went back over my old experiments to see if they still had the same result. I found that some things just do not work if you are not powerful enough, or lack the required knowledge.
I still have yet to begin believing that magic/psionics is possible, but I have seen far too many things to simply label it coincidence. Thus, I am always working with both, yet believing in neither. If it were not for the fact that I have been told what I am doing over a hundred times when the other person has no real way to know, I would be one of the people thinking that all the people here are idiotic role-players. However, things have been proven to me well enough that I accept it as truth, even while not believing it.
(The rest isn't done yet. Will post it in a few hours. This was just the general overview of my life, and still missing a few bits.)
My attempt to clean out my body and mind and destroy the astral parasites that got in was another major one, and that led to me skyrocketing in what I could do. This also allowed me to expand my AI project quite a bit, and led it to where it is now.
