Overload? help please!!!

[zbuksi]

First of all, thank you for reading this. I had really strange and scarry experience, and i believe that it is somehow related to psi. There was no logical answer to ehat happened. I was sitting in the auditorium and listen what assistent was telling (she was so dam boring ). I can swear that i felt the emotions of the rest students, but then i grounded myself so there would be no overload. Sudenly, a sharp pain struck me beneath the right side of the rib cage (right side to solar plexus) like someone stabed me with a knife! And i could not even move or breath without pain. Then it started to spread; it spreaded on whole torzo and then in the head. At that moment i was wet in a moment, feelin really strong spinning sensation in my head- everything was blury and i almost lost counciousness; i really thought that somethin leathal is happening, but with my last atom of strenght i menaged to stay councious. At that point enourmos heat was flowing in my body, i mean really really hot, burning sensation that was unbearable. It started to move to my legs. As it moved to my legs they were burning like someone pluged me into power outlet. I had operation on my left leg and the feeling on the wound was like it was wide open ( the lag was operated on two places- one wound is 15cm long, and another 30cm, and it is almost completely healed) and that the blood is comming out. I could even feel the blood on my skin!!! when i finally regain control over myself i looked on the leg and it was ok. only thing that bothers me that i found blood stain (not big, 2-3cm), but there was no open wound!!! And as I was operated my father gave me his car so i could go to classes, so as i was with the car i immediately went home. I sat in a car and when i turned the key and started engine it went wild!!! like it has it's own coucious!!! I stopped enigine and pulled out the key. It was really, really weird. I sat on a sidewalk and smoked a cigarette. After 15min sat back in a car and everything was ok with car and i came home safely. Only problem is that i still feel pressure in plexus and slight headache... and totally diferantly than before that 'overload' if it was one. I just want to know was it overload and did anyone else felt anything that coul be like this??? I am lucky that the whole thing happened in a minute or two so my friends were thinking that i just needed some fresh air. But if it was to last longer they could realize that something else is wrong... and that would not be good. So if anyone has any idea what was that and how to stop it from reppeating please write.

thanx, zbuksi.

[Leon]

I doubt it. I'd say the only overload is the part about the car, maybe you just couldn't control the energy you were feeling and you affected the car with it. Can you tell me, is there anybody at your school who knows you are psionic? And if so is there/is it anybody who would want to hurt you with this? What you described sounds like an attack. I would say next time this happens, try and hit them back in self defense. (I know Karen, I know...) But maybe it'll help you find out who it was.

[chakraflow]

Yeah i definatly think that someone in you're auditorium was using some kind of psi, but was obviously very good with it. you are good at empathy i see, and you needed to ground in order to stop the overload of everyones feelings.Well you could've just made a quick shield to block all the emotions out. Secondly, for the car, i think you were pretty stressed out, and needed that smoke to relax you, and thats why the car went normal afterwards, because when you are stressed out, and you are a psion, negative energy starts flowing through you, and you maybe just made it affect you're car. Smoking (iv'e never done it because if you're doing psi, you need to be healthy, and smoking will only make it harder to breath, and if you cant breath well, then you will get distracted and such and not do psi.)should've gotten all of the negative energy out, and gotten you back in a normal mood.
But yeah you're experiences are definatly psi related.

[zbuksi]

no, nobody knows about my activities, even my friends at colledge except one... Few persons who knows are mostly my really good friends and i am careful to who i talk about this; i dont want to anybody know what i'm doing in my free time. Maybe it was not concious? Maybe someone random attacked everybody without even knowing it? And i felt it most beacose i am more sensitive on psi beacose i use psi every day? Maybe that someone dont even knows what he/she did? and about shield... I have to make one really good... Have any suggestions what else to program except blocking negative energy and attacks?

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I made something... something like ball that is absorbing all energy (i used it instead grounding, and it consumes bad feelings also so i am happy all day) that is bad for me and feeds on it. it attracks atacks and after counter atack it consumes the attack. it worked today. Didn't stopped it but it wass really less powerful than yesterday. but i'm still convinced that someone is trying to hurt me. it weas random atack from someone who is not even aware of it, and with no controll over it or he/she is trying to let me have thinking that . I should try to work
on finding that person, and stop him/her before someone else gets hurted.

[chakraflow]

well, you could always track that person with psi, if he/she is using psi against you, then you can always trail his psi back to him by:
First make a shield, and program it to warm youre wrist when psi from someone else tries to attack you, and also program it to trail back that psi, and gie you a general idea of where the person who attacked you was.

[zbuksi]

ok, thanks!! And i made something really nice. it is a construct that feeds on the energy that is bad for me (neg energy and too much energy, that is from overload, and from bad emotion too) and i feel better than ever!! It looks like a ball with mouths. Also it atracks atacks and counteratack them before consuming energy of atack. Not working too good but at least it weakened the attack. It saved me yesterday. Nice idea, right

[Invisus]

(This is gonna sound fluff but I don't care) Did you by any chance loose some of your skill in psionics?

[JediKaren]

it's not fluff. You can lose your psionic ability for a short period if you harm your mind greatly enough. I suppose a powerful overload could temporily harm you enough your mind you shut you off from psi until it's done with healed.

[Invisus]

I've explained everything to you JediKaren can you give me a rough esitmate of about how long it would take for mine to come back?

[JediKaren]

well it depends on how bad it is, but take a week break and see if that returns you to normal. During that week, do NOT use or feel psi for any reason.

[Invisus]

I've tried all week....it feels impossible. I've used psi in EVERYTHING since I started with it... I can't help but do it. I even used it in playing Old Maid....don't ask I was loosing anyway....I guess I can start trying for another week...this is gonna be so hard...

[Intrigue]

It'll heal naturally.

I've been hit by a psi vamp before, not quite like that, but what you lose will slowly come back. Give it a little time. Deep meditation would probably help greatly.

[Mr.Experiment]

Hmm, is it totally possible to stop using psi completley?

Well, alot of us use it subconsciencly even people who do not even know about Psionics. To me its a natural part of life, and stopping would be like not using my thumbs.

It is like going through life with crutches for a week.
But, for a broken leg to heal you must use crutches for a while so I guess in both ways there similiar.

~Jano

[eggsilikeskitzo7]

Hmmmm
Quite a conundrum.
I have this theory that all Psi is branched of empathy.
Many people i know who use psi find it VERY hard to use it when doing negative actions. I think someone (non-psi) was thinking about hurting someone else.
And the ball would only STORE your neg energy (i think anyway)
try expressing it in a healthy way...talk about it
\with a cat, over AIM, with a loved one
ANYTHING it should help

[lola]

Gotto agree with ~Jano-

I think there are heaps of people out there ,that don`t even know about psionics at all.Doesn`t mean that they can`t direct energy-even subconsciously.

Thoughts can be very powerful things on their own & if someone is doing it subconsciously-(having strong thoughts with emotions attached)-without understanding or even trying to direct them,this could be causing you probs if you are sensitive to this & possibly having similar vibrations(in strength) could expose you to experiencing these intense feelings/reactions.
Lola