Post by genocidesiren on Nov 3, 2007 17:33:17 GMT -5
Okay, so, this is my first post, but I won't let it distract me from what I've been wanting to ask. (By the way, thank you JediKaren for welcoming me.)
So today was my first time attempting to try to create a psi-ball, I looked it up a couple weeks back, and I decided I'd try it at a later time.
So my first attempt, I sat on my bed, TV off, computer monitor on, and I sat against a pillow leaning against the wall, and my legs crossed, I imagined planting my energy into the ground, as roots, and would later absorb it, so I did all that, and I did feel something in my hand, not anything that would stand out, but my fingers twitched slightly my right hand felt a very warm temperature.
I attempted a second time about 10 minutes later, this time, I laid down on my bed, and imagined planting my energy into the ground below me, and this is where it got horrible, I think I focused too hard, because I soon felt as though I had no energy.
My body felt weak, and I started to freak out because my body wasn't responding correctly, and I couldn't remain calm. After a few moments I regained myself, and attempted the psi-ball, my thumb and pointer finger felt as though they were being pushed in a bit, at the tips.
So, I'd like to know, what caused my freak out? I had no energy, my body felt as though I just tried lifting a 10,000 pound weight off my chest, it felt as though my energy that I planted in the ground, was trying to pull me in with it. It was terrifying.
(Side note: I've always been bad at keeping a focused mind, meditating is super hard, just because words keep popping into my mind, telling me what I should do, like "relax, clear your thoughts.." and I figure when you meditate/do something spiritual, your mind is supposed to be absolutely blank.)
So today was my first time attempting to try to create a psi-ball, I looked it up a couple weeks back, and I decided I'd try it at a later time.
So my first attempt, I sat on my bed, TV off, computer monitor on, and I sat against a pillow leaning against the wall, and my legs crossed, I imagined planting my energy into the ground, as roots, and would later absorb it, so I did all that, and I did feel something in my hand, not anything that would stand out, but my fingers twitched slightly my right hand felt a very warm temperature.
I attempted a second time about 10 minutes later, this time, I laid down on my bed, and imagined planting my energy into the ground below me, and this is where it got horrible, I think I focused too hard, because I soon felt as though I had no energy.
My body felt weak, and I started to freak out because my body wasn't responding correctly, and I couldn't remain calm. After a few moments I regained myself, and attempted the psi-ball, my thumb and pointer finger felt as though they were being pushed in a bit, at the tips.
So, I'd like to know, what caused my freak out? I had no energy, my body felt as though I just tried lifting a 10,000 pound weight off my chest, it felt as though my energy that I planted in the ground, was trying to pull me in with it. It was terrifying.
(Side note: I've always been bad at keeping a focused mind, meditating is super hard, just because words keep popping into my mind, telling me what I should do, like "relax, clear your thoughts.." and I figure when you meditate/do something spiritual, your mind is supposed to be absolutely blank.)
