ADDMAN's logs

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today was my third day of practiceing after i recently found out from a psychic lady that everyone is psychic. i began reasearching and learned about psi balls and practiced making one. after about 3-5 minutes i made one it felt tingly like tiny prickles on my hand i was excited and decided to keep on trying, a few hours later i decided to try to meditate just cause i felt like it, i feel asleep and woke you 6 hours later.i think this is because i was useing my own energy instead of the elements.at this point i thaught of making a domain inside of my head from which i would draw power (i didnt think of this i read it in a fourum somewher) the place i thaught up of is a glass dome from which no one can see in or out there is a circleof stones in the middle where i stand and i am surrounded by fast winds and flames that i absorb.
after this my psi balls started to get hot to the point i felt i was burning my thumb.at this pint i cannot see my psi balls. after more reaserch on the topic of shields i tried to make one. the first time i think it was there but it was weak and it sofened contact if any thing at all. a few hours later i tried again. this time i could feel bumps and groves in the shield it felt stronger but i think it was only there as long as i stood there to feed it. i patted i down to the point i thought i was actually physical but then it just kinda dissapeared when i moved down to streanthen the bottom and also when i moved my hand through it i felt nothing at all and i feel more power full in my left hand

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i decided that my main focus is going to be pyrokietics (sp?) so i sat down in front of a candle and watched it move in a room with nointerfirence of wind, i am starting to imitate the movement with my hands when the fire curved towards and touched my right hand it was intence

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wow this is intence yesterday i could make the flame weaker by "pulling" energy out of it(thats what i thot it was) and today i tried getting angry i taught of all the times people riddiculed me and stuf and i put it tohether and i make the flame gettaller and like fliker it wasnt much put it was somthing. i dunno maybe im just mistaking normal stuff for things im doing because from what ive read t takes months to get any controll, im confused(by the way im using a candle in a closed space)

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WOOOHOO. thats awesome if it was in a draft-free place. well done addman! you must be a natural to get it so quickly.

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last night i got bored and i tried to make a psi pet and i think i did it was an aligator (but i dont no if it was ther or not maybe it was just my bored imagination) itold it to draw its power from a candle and i told it not to leave 8 inches around the candle the candle got weaker so im guessing that it was real, this morning i lit a match and i focused on drawing in its energy and it went out i was syked, but ive notced that my psi balls are getting weaker sometimes i feel as if the energy gets stored im my hands and is released when i get close to fire or somtin like i can barely feel my psiballs anymore were as they used to get my hands kinda hot

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skool has been keeping me busy im practicing calming the flame and pulling it with my right hand then left alternating nm is new i have som cool teachers

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i tried pulling the flame by one hand at a time in the past but today i tried pulling it with both hands at once and i could see the flame trying to split down the middle it was pretty cool but then it would morph back together over and over

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nm happened today except 4 the fact that i totaly predicted some stuff not very important but its somthing
1.so im downloading this thing and its taking 4 ever wen i woke up and thaught 80.2% and it was at 80.2%!
2.then i ordered this cell fone and i had a good feeling it was here and when i called my dad to see if it was, and he(my dad) said that it was!
it was pretty tight im guna go play with fire l8trs

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omg..please please try to write a bit more clearly. I can hardly read it.

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i didn't do much today but i tried pushing the fire instead of pulling it, it worked out quite well.oh and my psi balls are back (they died out for like a week)

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wow i wasnt making psi balls at all, it was basic electrokinises?! talk about confusing its really easy to mix up the branches of psi and such.i think it might be electrokinises because i can see a thin bluish hue around my fingers somtimes wen i make psi balls or afterwards kinda like a thin force field

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zzz so bored ... tried making fire bigger ,and it worked a little
i felt a presence today somthing very different from anything that ie ever felt before im not sure who it was it could be 1 of three
1.my gaurdian angel
2.my uncle
3.or a group of several of my ancestors
i felt as if they were telling me what i was supposed to do in a way but i didt really get it when they were here i felt stronger i tried to communicate with them and i think it worked but im not sure

i wont be on for the next few days probably because my home is being fumigated starting tomarrow -_- and im pissed about it because i have to move all of my stuff to some hotel likey with/o internet acces

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i havent been able to post or practice in a short while, my house was getting tented for termites. i worked on my pyro a little today but the flame wouldnt obey me so i put him out, i might try again later not sure though

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I'm developing a new theory,it has 3 parts one is the "inner flame" the "explosion" and the "after burn" I'm considering the inner flame to be a form of anger resulting from emotional pain/distress that unconsciously can build up in a person the explosion being the result of the pressure i.e. destruction, increased focus, determination/goal. and the after burn being the result or feeling of the original anger/distress. I'm not quite sure about the real reason i thot of it but i wanted to write it down before i forgot it