ADDMAN's logs

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dude this is way cool my pyro got stronger a little i can now sway it with my right hand (not as strong with my left yet)by moving my hand. Now you may be thinking that its just the air but i also practised through a note card which is very thick by the way. im normally skeptical to posting stuff like i moved fire with my mind and stuff mostly because i dont want it to be just a coinsidence and then if i try later to prove it i dont what to be thaught of as a liar. but this was definately basic pyrokinises.!!!!!!! ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

modify: ok 3hrs later i watched that hero thingy now so im amped for all this stuff i have lots of energy but unfortunately i havent learned to develop it that well yet. ive been reading books on the brain because i want to be a brain surgeon neuro sergeon or somtin like that (cause i love the brain) and i learned somtin did you know you start gettin altzeymers (sp?) wen your 20!!! but i can be reversed so its chill

[Stealth]

i think ive AP'd but i dont think i can talk about it ... wow it was really vivid .wow i am lost within my thaughts... .well off to try to AP/ sleep. you guys have no clue how mind boggleing this is (well actually you probably do bat watever lol) l8trs

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so last night i was walking don the street when a streetlamp went out and i was like huh thats wired, but later i remembered that that hapens alot like when im 30ft ffrom a streetlamp it goes out and starts to flicker it happens unusuallt often, like when im in the car at night it hapens when im even farther . i never noticed it befor because i guessed there was just somtin wrong with the fuse... i dont no anymore


i also learned how to broadcast telepathicly : so what i do is when im in my moms car and were going to the freeway i close my eyes and i focus and i get all tingly and somtimes my hands vibrate(my hands vibrate alot when i do psi,,,not violently)and then i send a message i usually say : you want to go faster , you are determined to get from point a to b in as little time as possible, your focus has been increased you want to clear the way for the black bmw x5 licence plate ******** you are extremely focused. that usually works if i do it the minute we get on the freeway and i rpeat it every 30 minutes or so to keep it fresh and becuse people leave and enter the free way but it dosent work if im alredy in traffic, i live in southern cali so we get lots of trafic here




wow ive been noticeing/remembering los of stuff lately, i remembered how sometimes i hear people calling my name and thats weird because i have a very original name(in america) and i remember this one time in 2nd grade when (on the playground)i heard someone from behind me call my name and when i turned around there was no one within 10-15yrds behind me and i heard my name very clearly.

[Stealth]

ive noticed today that when (lately) i try to just chill and knida tune everything my eyes flutter controllably but on their own and somtimes my hands try to shake i think i have parkinsons because sometimes my cheek starts to quiver and i have to rub it to make it stop. i dont knoe watever man even if it was id have no controll so even if i do why give a sh*t .i mean why bother caring about somthing you have no controll over... but i feel like impulses of like energy to those arreas when they happen... do i have like too much energy, is this normal?

[Stealth]

uggg ive been starting to lose intrest in this stuff and i dont even know why i realy want to learn it but I don't know i guess im just gunna have to push my self. i tried the psi wheel and that didnt help me belive much more (cause nothing happened). this happens to me alot i always switch my focus i just cant seem to give a crap about anything for more than a month... i guess i need a sign or somtin to restore my faith in this stuff. and i dont mean like somthing small cause i always seem to discard somthing it wud have to be somthing big like i get pissed at my computor and the screen spazzes and burns out or somthing noticeable and otherwise not explainable... im not giving up or anything im probly not gunna practice as muchh or somthing

[Stealth]

YES !!! i moved the psi wheel!!!!! it wasnt much like an inch arond but it was somthing and it was soo cool

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i saw an image in my head the today it was very vivid i saw a triangle and on the left and right side it had angel wings ive been thinking about whaat it could mean for a while if you have any idea feel free to post

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been studying chakras and how to stranthen them and ive noticed that i get frequent buildups of energy in my 1st and 4th chakras which would be my grounding chakra and my heart chakra and they can get fairy strong i dont no how to convert the energy to somthing usefull so i usually just dispell it



EDIT: also last night i was meditaing in bed and i got very hot and i started sweating it was crazy hot 2 like ive never gotten that hot while standing still

[Stealth]

this is what i expirienced mostly the top part (about the heat)http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Transformation.html

[Stealth]

COLD PSI FINALLY!!!! ;D ;D ;D so i was sitting there in my room and my hand suddenly got real cold real fast it was so cool , and realy random THAT WAS SOO COOL (literaly) ;D ;D ;D ;D

[Stealth]

been reel busy basicly work sleep work sleep.it sux.i probly wont b on for a couple months. o and btw only new thing is buildups of psi randomly in different parts of my body but normally in myu hands. they get really strong somtimes like theres somthing inside that wants to reach out and hit somthing. i think its electrokinises but i havent seen any results in that yet. been super lazy and cant get my hands on a candle for pyro. my mom wants to fukin "bond" with me -__- . ive been really angry lately im glad i dont have strong psi because id probly make the bushes outside my room catch on fire *snickers*.if i didnt have lacrosse id be angry 24/7. ohh by the way i shocked my self it wasnmt much but hey its somthing. ive been trying newforms of meditation and they work really well put me in really deep sleep in like 5minutes which for me is AMAZING it used to take me like an hour to fall asleep. been watching lost that show is soo trippy.

[Stealth]

this is the most unlucky week of my life... what the hell.... id post it but im 2 lazy... omfg...

[Stealth]

i got a reely good psi ball 2day it was real strong
i think i found a meathod to gather energy :
ok so i basicly visulyse my self as millions of matrix symbols and i pull them from everything around me the dirt the sky anything around me
then these symbols flow out of my hands and form a psi ball
seriously i got so much energ from doing this my hands went numb at one point( but i was doing somthing else 2 ok gtg no time to explain)

[Stealth]

some new stuff i can fluctuate enegy more easily throught my body now. i focused on a candle and made the flame flicker pretty cool.today my friends were being dicks so they tried to tie me to a tree. i senced some tension/trouble so i tried to scan there thaughts waiting for the second that they would discard the idea of me running away and mentally making them let there gaurd down. then i ran. kinda pissed me off dont reely care though ill kick one of ther fatasses in laccrose. the other ones a weakling who wants to join laccrose so when he does if he pisses me off again ill break his arm and he otherone this this kid with add that drools all over the place and had giantsim i think ill just avaoid him... so over all its been a good day.

[.tyler.]

Are you sure they're your friends? Cause as funyn as it sounds, friends ussually dont tie you to a tree.