Post by .tyler. on Sept 1, 2007 11:20:32 GMT -5
After forgetting alot of important things in my last ap I decided from now on I am going to keep a personal log. Alot of the things here you probably won't understand + beleive so keep your thoughts to yourself if they aren't helpful. I don't understand alot that is going around me now so some of my posts will be merely thoughts. To start off this is actually a pm I gave to Karen.
"The craziest thing happened in cuba psi-wise. Alot of stuff, alot. It's really hard to explain and when I'm done you probably won't beleive but I think I'm something like the one. I don't practise psi but well it's hard to explain. Let me start off by saying that I was really emotional one night and extremely sad and I know that I screwed up last year and I know that I say that alot but I really meant it. I've been living two incomplete lives instead of just living one full life if that makes sense. Well I knew that I was in for change.
I was talking to this girl and I don't know if you remember that I had this dream once where I fell in love and I'm pretty sure it might have been that girl. Well first off I forgot to mention that I had this huge cut on my foot from playing soccer and I healed it almost completely. It doesn't even hurt any more and there is a new layer of skin. I don't even know how to heal... I just cupped my hands around my foot and let psi run through it. I only did this for 10 minutes too. But back to the girl. It took alot of courage but eventually I told her about psi and she actually beleived me and I showed her my foot and she was wowed. Then I had this vision of her climbing out of a pool and sliiping and breaking her left arm. So I asked her if she broke her arm before and she said when she was younger she did actually break it. I started explaining psi and stuff and I touched on Einstein's theories of relativity and my own theories of life. I told her about cost versus worth and this is going to be a long pm by the way lol so I'll move on but not to sound silly but she was telling me how she understood everything I said and that I was the most brilliant person she's ever met. I left off by saying that if we really are meant to be together we will run into eachother in the future...
Now I know you hear this alot from people how they think their special and stuff. But when I was a kid the number 7 came up alot. I had my tonsils removed seven times, I've had surgery on my ears 7 times, my number for soccer was 7 for 7 years, even when I play cards I get 7's alot and there's alot more times but I'll stop. And you know how 7 is god's number, that's the relationship I'm trying to make here and I'll explain why it's important in a bit.
The next day on the beach I was tanning and you know how people say they can see circles and stuff in the air and squigglys. I've been able to see them my whole life too. But this time it was different and there were alot more. And lots of different shapes and colours. And I could make myself lucid dream but I don't remember where I went in my dream.
This is where it goes a little weird. On the plane home I was really relaxed and it's hard to explain but it's like I'm fully there. It's like that now, I feel really distant. This is going to sound crazy but well I sort of lucid dreaming but I was awake. I couldn't move but I could see people that weren't on this world. It's tough to explain because I forget so much of it. It was a 3 hour flight but I can only remember certain parts. But I could speak telepthically to them. Oh ya... you know the circles I was telling you I can see. I'll try to explain them first, they are tiny, they have a dot in the middle and they're see through. It's hard to explain but the circles are people... when I focus on one of them it grows and a face appears and I can talk to the person with telepathy. And by the way, I never knew I knew telepathy cause I've never done it before. I kept opening my eyes and closing them to make sure that the people in the astral world didnt actually exist. At one time in the astral, a guy was walking from the bathroom and I sent him a message to talk to me and he actually turned back and came over to me and I asked him if he could hear me and he said something but I couldn't hear him. It's hard for me to receive messages rather then sending them. And my message was sort of an action. It's hard to explain but I could either use words or I could send a notion.
This is where it gets a little crazy. I was doing all this amazing things and I figured I could do better and test things out. I don't know if I've told you but one of the things I regret alot and think about is my old best friend who killed himself. So I thought about him and his face showed up and well I'll keep the conversation to myself but then I called for my spiritual guide (i think I have alot of them by the way) and I asked him how to ap. He said just float out of body but I couldn't do it. So he grabbed my arm and pulled me into the planes. And like I was saying, this is where it gets crazy. I called for Jesus Christ and showed up as well with my spiritual guide. I asked if could hear me, he said yes, I ask if he was Jesus and I said yes. He was wearing a white robe and he had a halo over his head and he has these deep eyes and you could see the love in them and his smile was understanding, you could tell how he understood things and your probably thinking I'm crazy now lol. I don't remember all the things we talked about but I asked him about civilization and about helping people and I could hear what he was saying in my head like not in my ears, its weird. He noticed I had trouble flying and I asked him how fly better and he explained to that I had to understand that the center of the universe is to each person themselves. So the center of the universe for me is me and he said that once I understood that, then all I have to do is stand still and move the universe around me. I didn't have to anything all I had to do was float and imagine the universe moving. Then I got this vision or maybe he sent it to me but I saw him getting crusified. I felt his pain and I well I saw it happen, I saw his companions on the crosses aswell. I saw them get nails in their hands and it was sort of deja vu (hard to explain) but I asked him if I'm the reincarnation of Jesus Christ. He didn't answer at first he just looked into me and then he said "your a part of me". I don't really know what that means but he dissapeared and I was left thinking.
You probably think I'm crazy dont you? But as I was saying earlier, why stop... why not go farther. So I called for God. It's hard to explain because it's really dark for me because my third is pretty underdevelopped but he has an aura of white surrounder him like a cloud of gas. His face is wise and he seems old but doesnt look wrinkly or anything. His face certainly isn't human. I asked him if he was God and nodded slowly with a smile and then some annoying kid behind me kicked my chair and he was gone. But I just spoke to God, I was just sitting there in awe. The holiest of the holiest and I spoke to him.
Now I started to beleive myself and I was getting these visions of the future alot. Like this little girl one seat up and to the right, I saw her when she is going to be older and shes going to be a demon hunter. And this girl with glasses on, I actually went inside her body and had walked around and her mother starting yelling at me (the girls body though). And this british guy, I went inside his body like the girl and I was stumbling across one of the pathways in Cuba drunk and I collapsed onto the grass and started to throw up into a bush. There was a brown girl and I went around her house and watching some tv.
You remember the circles? Well I could control them. I started making this cool shapes with them and they'd fly aound in patterns they'd all be smiling at me. I think I want to start drawing too, maybe you could teach me some day
but I was making these stars and pentacles but in 4 or 5 dimensions and I made tornadoes out of the circles (which are actually people if you understand)
Then we landed and it was over. I did miss the akashi records though, I wonder if it's still a phonebook for me. Could I talk to on msn some time or something. And I'm not positive if it was the time on the beach but I did some Jedi stuff. I'm not sure but I thought you were there? If you remember and I think we might of fought with lightsabers (for fun of course). But anyways I have to go for dinner but I'd like to talk to you sometime on msn or even in chat.
Sorry for making this such a long message."
"The craziest thing happened in cuba psi-wise. Alot of stuff, alot. It's really hard to explain and when I'm done you probably won't beleive but I think I'm something like the one. I don't practise psi but well it's hard to explain. Let me start off by saying that I was really emotional one night and extremely sad and I know that I screwed up last year and I know that I say that alot but I really meant it. I've been living two incomplete lives instead of just living one full life if that makes sense. Well I knew that I was in for change.
I was talking to this girl and I don't know if you remember that I had this dream once where I fell in love and I'm pretty sure it might have been that girl. Well first off I forgot to mention that I had this huge cut on my foot from playing soccer and I healed it almost completely. It doesn't even hurt any more and there is a new layer of skin. I don't even know how to heal... I just cupped my hands around my foot and let psi run through it. I only did this for 10 minutes too. But back to the girl. It took alot of courage but eventually I told her about psi and she actually beleived me and I showed her my foot and she was wowed. Then I had this vision of her climbing out of a pool and sliiping and breaking her left arm. So I asked her if she broke her arm before and she said when she was younger she did actually break it. I started explaining psi and stuff and I touched on Einstein's theories of relativity and my own theories of life. I told her about cost versus worth and this is going to be a long pm by the way lol so I'll move on but not to sound silly but she was telling me how she understood everything I said and that I was the most brilliant person she's ever met. I left off by saying that if we really are meant to be together we will run into eachother in the future...
Now I know you hear this alot from people how they think their special and stuff. But when I was a kid the number 7 came up alot. I had my tonsils removed seven times, I've had surgery on my ears 7 times, my number for soccer was 7 for 7 years, even when I play cards I get 7's alot and there's alot more times but I'll stop. And you know how 7 is god's number, that's the relationship I'm trying to make here and I'll explain why it's important in a bit.
The next day on the beach I was tanning and you know how people say they can see circles and stuff in the air and squigglys. I've been able to see them my whole life too. But this time it was different and there were alot more. And lots of different shapes and colours. And I could make myself lucid dream but I don't remember where I went in my dream.
This is where it goes a little weird. On the plane home I was really relaxed and it's hard to explain but it's like I'm fully there. It's like that now, I feel really distant. This is going to sound crazy but well I sort of lucid dreaming but I was awake. I couldn't move but I could see people that weren't on this world. It's tough to explain because I forget so much of it. It was a 3 hour flight but I can only remember certain parts. But I could speak telepthically to them. Oh ya... you know the circles I was telling you I can see. I'll try to explain them first, they are tiny, they have a dot in the middle and they're see through. It's hard to explain but the circles are people... when I focus on one of them it grows and a face appears and I can talk to the person with telepathy. And by the way, I never knew I knew telepathy cause I've never done it before. I kept opening my eyes and closing them to make sure that the people in the astral world didnt actually exist. At one time in the astral, a guy was walking from the bathroom and I sent him a message to talk to me and he actually turned back and came over to me and I asked him if he could hear me and he said something but I couldn't hear him. It's hard for me to receive messages rather then sending them. And my message was sort of an action. It's hard to explain but I could either use words or I could send a notion.
This is where it gets a little crazy. I was doing all this amazing things and I figured I could do better and test things out. I don't know if I've told you but one of the things I regret alot and think about is my old best friend who killed himself. So I thought about him and his face showed up and well I'll keep the conversation to myself but then I called for my spiritual guide (i think I have alot of them by the way) and I asked him how to ap. He said just float out of body but I couldn't do it. So he grabbed my arm and pulled me into the planes. And like I was saying, this is where it gets crazy. I called for Jesus Christ and showed up as well with my spiritual guide. I asked if could hear me, he said yes, I ask if he was Jesus and I said yes. He was wearing a white robe and he had a halo over his head and he has these deep eyes and you could see the love in them and his smile was understanding, you could tell how he understood things and your probably thinking I'm crazy now lol. I don't remember all the things we talked about but I asked him about civilization and about helping people and I could hear what he was saying in my head like not in my ears, its weird. He noticed I had trouble flying and I asked him how fly better and he explained to that I had to understand that the center of the universe is to each person themselves. So the center of the universe for me is me and he said that once I understood that, then all I have to do is stand still and move the universe around me. I didn't have to anything all I had to do was float and imagine the universe moving. Then I got this vision or maybe he sent it to me but I saw him getting crusified. I felt his pain and I well I saw it happen, I saw his companions on the crosses aswell. I saw them get nails in their hands and it was sort of deja vu (hard to explain) but I asked him if I'm the reincarnation of Jesus Christ. He didn't answer at first he just looked into me and then he said "your a part of me". I don't really know what that means but he dissapeared and I was left thinking.
You probably think I'm crazy dont you? But as I was saying earlier, why stop... why not go farther. So I called for God. It's hard to explain because it's really dark for me because my third is pretty underdevelopped but he has an aura of white surrounder him like a cloud of gas. His face is wise and he seems old but doesnt look wrinkly or anything. His face certainly isn't human. I asked him if he was God and nodded slowly with a smile and then some annoying kid behind me kicked my chair and he was gone. But I just spoke to God, I was just sitting there in awe. The holiest of the holiest and I spoke to him.
Now I started to beleive myself and I was getting these visions of the future alot. Like this little girl one seat up and to the right, I saw her when she is going to be older and shes going to be a demon hunter. And this girl with glasses on, I actually went inside her body and had walked around and her mother starting yelling at me (the girls body though). And this british guy, I went inside his body like the girl and I was stumbling across one of the pathways in Cuba drunk and I collapsed onto the grass and started to throw up into a bush. There was a brown girl and I went around her house and watching some tv.
You remember the circles? Well I could control them. I started making this cool shapes with them and they'd fly aound in patterns they'd all be smiling at me. I think I want to start drawing too, maybe you could teach me some day
but I was making these stars and pentacles but in 4 or 5 dimensions and I made tornadoes out of the circles (which are actually people if you understand)Then we landed and it was over. I did miss the akashi records though, I wonder if it's still a phonebook for me. Could I talk to on msn some time or something. And I'm not positive if it was the time on the beach but I did some Jedi stuff. I'm not sure but I thought you were there? If you remember and I think we might of fought with lightsabers (for fun of course). But anyways I have to go for dinner but I'd like to talk to you sometime on msn or even in chat.
Sorry for making this such a long message."
