Becky's Log

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There is so much to say... Now I have a place to let it go!
I am carerfully making documents to put in this personal log area. My research and psi practice are working together equally. I am gearing up to share my experiences. It all takes time.

By the way... I use the "I *purple heart* JK" in my signature line in other website forums. I hope you guys do too.

Hang in there JediKaren you have lots of people who care about you.

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Brandonslau had some good advice for empaths… I am stuck on the first suggestion.

1. “Check out your emotions. Let them out and touch, feel, taste, smell and look at them. Some people only identify a few emotions (happy, sad or angry). There are many more. Get acquainted with your feelings.”

Loaded advice! Check out MY emotions? I better make sure they are actually mine now that I know that I’m really an empath. I didn’t know what psi was? or what being an empath was? I saw “Lady in the Water” movie, and one of the characters was an empath. I was familiar with the term, but never researched very much about it. In nursing school they want us to have empathy. I should have been less ignorant.

Before learning about psionics and this website, I used to have a flood of emotion within me several at once, mixed chaios. It was a nightmare sometimes. I have been diagnosed bipolar as well. I thought it was all coming from the mental illness, which some very well may be! The empathy I have had all my life and not really known it. 1. Check out MY emotions? Where do I begin? Protection! My mind screams!

I read into psi balls, how to make them, and how to use them for practice and making shields. I made a psi ball and didn’t really know what to do with it. I was hiding in the bathroom and my daughter just came in and I dropped it. I needed a good shield! NOW! Then I will see who I am! This was an exciting breakthrough because I have never tried to consciously protect myself from the influx of disaster that people project. It was going to destruct before I went to bed by dissolving when I wanted it to, and if I wanted to reinforce it, no problem.

I made an adequate shield. It blocked the emotions being projected from others and also kept myself from projecting my emotions out. It didn’t block everything, but enough to get an adverse reaction. I unexpectedly felt a void, nausea, and unpleasant loneliness. My skin became pale and I felt weak.

I wasn’t feeling anything negative coming from my husband, and decided to adjust the shield. I accepted positive emotion from my husband when he touched me. This helped. This was a moment that made me realize that my own being was calling out for help. Uh oh.

I don’t have my shield up right now. I’m working on releasing negative emotions, programming positive ones back in. I am working through EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) and Zpoint process. I must rebuild a new person to carry the empath gift and become proficient with its use. I am 34 and am thankful that I have the rest of my life to help others. More to come…

I made some posts on (EFT) Emotional Freedom Technique’s forum. On my second post they boosted me to the top 500 contributers. You may read that if you like, it will explain more about me.

eftcommunity.emofree.com/forums/t/1159.aspx

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Empathy improvement #2 – still trying to get a grasp on emotions. I have techniques that help me with the improvement of my psi empath energy. The biggest thing I need to do is release some of my own negative emotion, it is blocking me from reaching a higher potential.

The only philosophy that purely acknowledges psi the limitless possibility of its wonder is this very website. I have been tapping through EFT. I have tapped on housework and several aspects related because it used to bring me anxiety. I have been working through zpoint to release obsession and sadness. If anyone is interested, both programs are free, and these videos explain some of the science behind why it works….(psience)

www.zpointprocess.com

www.emofree.com/

I have been reflecting on human emotion and accept the idea that it is possible to generalize them into four categories. Human emotion is very complex as JediK explained in her article. It is possible to feel all four categories at once. (This is not my original idea but something learned in therapy). The four emotions are glad, sad, angry, and scared. Only one emotion out of four is purely positive. This explains why it is difficult to be happy ‘all the time’. Here is a simplified meaning of each…

Glad…something good has happened and I like it.
Sad…something bad has happened and I can’t do anything about it.
Angry…something bad has happened and I’m going to do something about it.
Scared…something bad is about to happen.

Think about an emotion, then I fit it in one or more of the categories. I am unable to think of many emotions that do not fit in any of them. Nothing is full proof, but the emotion associated with these four categories is at least a start for me. You can use EFT and zpoint if you do not believe they work, the will still work anyway. The founders of the program love to help skeptics.

I used zpoint to help disconnect the emotion from certain thoughts not only at the subconscious level but as deep as possible into the subconscious. Here is an example of something that I have used zpoint for. Yesterday...

Whenever I think about __________ I feel _____________

The “fill in the blank” was (myself, sad). When I thought about sad I linked it with “something bad has happened and I can’t do anything about it”—and all the emotions that were related to sad and sadness that I could think if…hopeless, worthless, etc... I do not wish to feel sad when I think about myself. I read the zpoint script through this, and I also used EFT to tap on sadness as it relates to me thinking of myself. It helped greatly.

I am anxious to get the work on myself finished. As I receive blessings, I wish to give back. I wish to give back 10 fold of what has been given to me. If you are reading this...Have a great day.

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My goal for today is to improve the relationship between me and my daughter Anna, and improve the relationship between me and my husband, Scott. The end result of getting myself straightend out will be great for being a strong, well grounded empath.