Wite's AP log

[witerabit]

Ok so this is where I am going to post my many attempts to succesfully AP. So far i have tried three times. None with a successgully AP. But, that will come with time.

Attempt One
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I read some material on temples, spirit guides, and APing in general. I have always had a facination in the thought that i may be able to leave my body and travel anywhere. I was sitting in my computer chair, room mostly clean, desk rather cluttered, and decided to attempt to AP. I also had windows live messenger open at the time. I started out trying to relax while listening to my usual calming song. As I took some deep breaths I could feel the energy moving to my hands, where it usually gathers. I began to relax. I then visualized the white light spilling from my forehead and covering my body. I could feel myself relaxing more and more. Then I got a message on messenger. That broke my concentration so I powered up my monitor and congratulated myself on at least attempting to AP.

Attempt Two
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This time I decided to take more precaution to not be disturbed so i changed my name and message. I then relaxed and attempted again. I didn't get much farther before various things drew me out of concetration. Once again I stopped and congratulated myself.

Attempt Three
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I had decided that this time i would take no chances. I layed in my bed, completely away from the computer. I relaxed and entered a state of semi-meditation. I then visualized myself sitting up and walking out of my body. I began to move involuntarily. I then intensified the visualization and the movement stopped. I decided that this was enough for now and opened my eyes and got up.

[The Adfeng]

It would be easier to go by days. Just post every day, or so, and post your experience.

[witerabit]

New day, new attempts.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Attempt One
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I got my meditation music ready, layed on my bed, and got comfortable. I began to try with my eyes open. I relaxed and listened to the music. My room grew dim (although I believe this was the sun passing behind a cloud) and I began to see a white shimmering light at the edges of my vision. I stayed in this state for quite some time but lost focus. I then decided to try with my eyes closed. As I breathed and relaxed I entered the state of alert relaxed-ness that I have become familiar with. I then began to fade away from my senses. Listening to the music I was no longer aware of my hands, or most of my body for that matter. I began to feel a pressure on my hands. It felt as if i were attempting to rise but was being held down. At one point I was compltely unaware. When I came back to awareness I got a little unnerved (not in a scared way but more of an anxious way), I decided I couldn't focus much longer and ended the session.

[witerabit]

OK I haven't really been trying much lately, but i tried last night.

Monday, February 5, 2008

Attempt One
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Ok, so I layed down in my bed. Started the music I have that supposedly helps. I followed the instruction on the music thing. I lost feeling of my body, it wasn't numb i just wasn't aware that i had a body. When I reentered the awareness of my body, I could no longer feel my hands resting on my legs (I could feel my legs and my hands but i couldnt feel them touching). I felt a semi-intense pressure on my hands. I did not focus on it for fear of losing concentration and it stopping. I layed there for a while. When I finally decided I was tired, I turned off the music and slept.

[bigdognick6]

this happens to me constantly i wait about 30 minutes into it decide im tired and stop. i am going to try a method i found on psipog. they said on way to artificially induce sleep paralisis is to not move a muscle for about 30 minutes. with the AI in my head i think i can hold a meditative position for about 30 minutes. the music does help as long as you dont get one where the guy talk the whole time.

[witerabit]

Friday, February 22, 2008

Attempt One
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Ok so I decided to try today in health class. I got bored and we were watching some video so I figured I had some time. We had a substitute so everybody had moved the desks and I was relatively isolated. I listened to the music. I practice closed eyed. I just find it easier to focus with my eyes closed. I layed my head down and relaxed. It appeared that my field of vision darkened. It went from me seeing a little light to seeing no light. I got the same feeling in my hands, but I also felt it in my feet/legs. I eventually lost focus because my class was so loud.

[bigdognick6]

youll get there eventually go ahead and keep trying.

[pspeters]

go a little deeper into your meditation. your almost there. try to not clear your mind completely. keep your purpose clear. every couple minutes visualize yourself rising. this should get you farther. when the vibrations hit your there

[witerabit]

thanks man