Guys

[JediKaren]

I'm going to be blunt with you and get the worst over with.

Right now I'm crying and shaking and my stomach hurts. Why? Well if you have been reading my third ap log then you know and if you haven't, well here it is in a nut shell:

My mom is dying from breast cancer and there's nothing I or anyone can do at this point. My father and I don't know how long she has, but things are getting bad right now. I have three weeks of college, two weeks of classes and one weeks of finals. I'm going through hell right now.

I hate saying this, but I can't take care of the site right now. I can't think. I can't function and somehow I have to get through college. I have to find a way to get through this bloody hell I've been placed in. God, it just gets worse the more I think about it.

Please, I'm begging you all to behave for just three weeks. Mods, I'm begging you to take care of the site until I can pull myself together. If you all really do love me like your banners say, just do as I ask. Don't give the mods trouble. Be nice to each other. Help the newbies. I won't do requests. I won't answer questions related to psionics.

Please, just this one time pull through for me. I need help and I HATE asking for it. I hate being so pitiful, but this is more than I can handle.

[Brilenus]

I hope things get better for you. I will do what I can to keep things in order around here, though I am not a mod, people still seem to listen to me now and then.

Don't feel bad about needing help, everyone does at some point. You have already put up with far more than most people I know would be able to handle.

[Rippy]

Bril's right.

I hope everything works out for you, I'll do my best to assist in maintaining the site while you're away.

You are most certainly not being 'pitiful' by any means. You've been incredibly brave to pull through this far, and by all means, you definitely deserve to have a break.

Good luck to you, I cannot imagine the pain you must be going through..

[madboy1993]

i am so sorry JK,i will be better than ever..hope your mom gets better and you get better

[JediKaren]

"My mom is dying from breast cancer and there's nothing I or anyone can do at this point."

She won't get better.

[Darin Rosewood]

Did the doctor say it's 100% terminal? If not, she still has a chance, however small. Don't give up so easily. Man, I can't tell you I know how you feel. I lost my mother to cancer when I was two, I have one memory with her in it. Can't possibly have hit me as hard as it's hitting you. Listen, if there's anything I can do for you (unlikely, but there's a chance), let me know, I'll try to help with whatever I can. Gods... that's really horrible. Like I said, sorry about your mother. And sorry for rambling, I tend to do that when I don't know what to say.

[Dumplins]

Awww I'm sorry Jedi I know how it feels to loose some one that is in your family as in a house hold I hope you can pull threw this as we will to well let me just speak for my self and good luck with every thing and if it is possible I hope your mom will get better cause what would we do with out mothers

[Mr.Experiment]

I'm sorry for the bad news.

Though I still believe there is a chance.
I've seen people who have had things and then gone through miracles.
I had a relative who had cancer [Not sure what type] and the doctors said for 100% certainty she was going to die that year. Its been many years, and she no longer has cancer.

So I hope your mom may go through a miracle, and I hope you pull through Karen.

Good Luck

~Jano

[JediKaren]

guy you need to read the log BEFORE you comment: thepsiworld.proboards37.com/index.cgi?board=logs&action=display&thread=1191357780&page=4

[beck9870]

Your pain is tremendous. This is a difficult moment in your life, and trying to hold things together through these final exams can't be easy. You mentioned somewhere that you and your mother weren't all that close. The mother/daughter bond is extremely powerful and when she passes perhaps you feel your connection with her will be lost. It will never be lost, don't believe that.

Your mother loves you. After she is gone you will still feel her with you. Love is amazing, it transcends death. My mother passed away in 2002 and she is still with me in my heart. I miss her very much, and the pain never completely goes away, but death is something that you and mother can accept to make the transition easier.

Everyone wants you to not give up hope that she can live through this. Yeah. I believe myself she still has a chance, I believe in miracles. My mother-in-law battled cancer twice and won. What I pray is peace for your family. Immediate relief from the harsh intense emotion associated with anticipating grief. The peace of God is great comfort. The peace of acceptance may bring some healing.

Anything negative in these remaining days needs to be removed from your family's presence. It would be nice to have these days with my own mother in person, as you do.

I will keep you in my prayers. It is no accident with God's love and divine timing.

Love,
Becky

[Liz]

Don't worry about the site, JK. We'll behave until you get back. Just take care of yourself and your family and we'll be here whenever you're ready to come back. I know "we're here for you" doesn't mean much now, but just know that we are and always will be.

[Boldylocks]

JediKaren, our thoughts go with you. Hang in there.. The mods here , I know , will go a great job in keeping things in order.

I know what your going through to some extent. I am going to be sending love boosts to your Mom , you and your father.

Hugs & Luv

Boldyloxx

[ashvin1jedi]

hey...everybody is in a spot now and then...and everyone feels pain...our thoughts are with ya...just hang in there...


well i am sure the mods would do a good job...take care!

May you have peace within!

[pyrokinetic]

Behaving I'm sure will be shown through out the site. After all, who is the admin? Three weeks for us to pull through is only a hundreth of what you have done, and doing this will be necessary for you. I hope you get this worked out.

[GEOvanne]

sorry you have to go through all this karen.


i know your mom's not a pet but this is how i view it if my pet dies.
ill think of the spirit leaving the body and realising that it still exists after death, and that its not confined to just one place and is able to finally be free and never have to worry about being sick and stuff again.