Help on Blocking

[pillz]

I need help on developing a method to block my thoughts from others (as well as incoming thoughts, but my transmitting takes precedence).

I can send as well as receive thoughts, but my sending is usually crazy, "jerky," stuff that I cannot control, no matter how much I try. I tell my mind not to think about something, only to have it go straight in that direction, as well as any other direction I label "Bad." The receivers around me get these messages, phrases, words, images, the things that I would prefer stay locked up, yet cannot keep in control.

I have no problem with the things I receive, I can usually tell the difference between which are mine and which aren't, which is (I think) the biggest issue I have with being a receiver.

Recently, I've begun using this new method: Thinking "lalalalala" and "nananana" at the same time. Since I can only have two "trains" of thought going on at once, as long as I'm constantly sending out those two lines, I can't think of any of the stuff that I would rather not have people receive. It's worked great, until I start to think about why I'm doing that, and then one of the lines stops and I start explaining why. I usually catch it too late, after my mind has gone "Because you don't wanna think something like [!!!]."

Yeah...
So anyway, anyone out there got a technique they think could help me?

[JediKaren]

Have you thought (no joke intended) about meditation, wispering your thoughts or simplely shieling your mind? I recently got taught how to wisper your thoughts. Just think quieter. As for shielding I never did figure it out. I think you just have to build a shield inside of your head and keep it from letting thoughts come out. Of course you can always just learn to blank out your mind with meditation, but that's no fun.

[pillz]

Yeah, meditation's supposed to help, but I'm not as good at focusing my mind as I should be, or I guess, as I would like to be. I'm trying to get back into it, slowly. I've read so much about it and it's been years since I did it regularly. I've been gently getting myself back into that old self; I've been meditating or consciously directing/stopping my thoughts about once or twice a week. I'm too lazy/forgettful to do it every day, though I know I really should.

I could try whispering my thoughts, as long as you ARE talking about inside my head. I tried doing it out loud for a while, but can't. I keep thinking too much, and it comes faster when I have to think about whispering as well. It didn't really freak me out to be talkin' to myself that much, but my roommates prolly had something different to say about that. But I feel even if I keep them "quiet" in my head, the mere fact that they're being made is enough to have me "blast" them everywhere.

As for the shield, I really don't think it works for me. It might have to do with faith in it, and I just don't have enough. Imagining an object keeping what I'm thinking from going any farther than my own mind just doesn't work, personally. I've tried to visualize one in front of me, one surrounding me, and one encasing my brain, with no positive results.

Thanks for the suggestions, BTW. Feels good to have someone try to help.