A little "exercise" I've done for a very long time

[ate]

I think since as long as I was mentally capable of doing this something urged me from the inside of myself, to do this.

Remember, I used to be a Christian, never hardcore, I never hurt people like most religionists do, likely because I never believed in pushing beliefs onto others. Yet I had my moments alone, where it was the mystical/personal experience, fit into a "christian" format.

I've since learned what these energies and consciousnesses actually represent, and realize that they can go by any name we give them.

So I've lost the glitz, but kept all the knowledge, I haven't given up because I realized religion is not the path of acceptance, but I realized it catches you by giving you some of the truth, and that was what I was after, and so I expanded on what I knew, and slowly left. Lol@the categories people would place me in now, but I am not in and no one else is.

So, the thing I've done, is something based on the "love" of "christ" whether that may be a real being in your heart, in the past or in the cosmos, and it involved lying in bed. I used to do all sorts of mental exercises or go through experiences while I was sitting, at school or bored waiting for something somewhere, but now it's usually just in bed.

So I lie in bed. And casual and odd series of thought events takes my perception away from my own present self, and moves into both the past and future simultaneously. Because I can't simlpy move to the past, without my body actually still existing in the future, it just happens.

So when in this state, I view people. All kinds of people, usually it will start with the family, I don't know what causes this, but I basically have conversations with them. Except...they're not doing much talking, I am, and it's about all the things that I want to "smooth" out, pretend I was just about to die, well that is the state/moment where you can get everything out, and it would stand like concrete as if it you've done the real thing.

And I'm fairly certain to an extent, that this is the real thing, that you're/ I'm connecting with the subconscious of that person through my subconscious (the thing that makes big landscapes in my head and sets up 'meetings' with other beings). A forgiveness begins, after all the reviews have gone, and it's you forgiving them.

It's never you begging for forgiveness, that never happens, in this state it's like a delusion to think that forgiveness comes from others, it starts within you, and then spreads. After all this, it's like love, you must love them. But not because you have to. Because of some religion, or because love is a very high energy radiating force of life, but because you should imagine their body, imagine them, and say "they look just like I do", you realize they are truly your brother or sister, and that you are in this together.

Slowly, this evolves into something like imagining, and seeing white lights wrapping around then and literally pulling them into you, and it's like the past and these loose ends are finally severed. And you exist, kind of like co-exist with their personalities inside of you, and with this it's like you expand, like you become larger, and you have twice the amount of spiritual strength to put forth. Although. I understand this as simply being your NATURAL energetic self, and bodies, acting UNHINDERED by a worrying consciousness, with memories in the subconscious to "haunt" it.

It's kind of sad or funny, depending on the way you look at it, because this is what is believed to happen, by the tibetan book of intermediary states ( the book of the dead), right after death.

When one is very primitive and not beyond the wheel of reincarnation yet, they will experience each life as if they are tied to it without light or life elsewhere. And so if they review, and they don't like something that they see, and yet they realize they are literally attached to this life until they can fully accept it, then they experience and re-experience all those moments and situations over and over again. Slowly they are supposed to learn to bring love into it, through their own imagination, since a brain won't exist at this point!

Yet, having the chance to do this now, and to do what you have to, to know that you're actually doing it, it kind of sets you free from worry. I feel this is something important that everyone should do, and already does, just not consciously. Yet the goal of the experience here, may be to bring what's subconscious to the conscious, so that it's knowledge, it's expanse, and it's love may be yours. I also believe that love equals a very very high energy force and consciousness which exists transient the entire universe.

SO if you would like to, try this out and tell me how it goes.

Note, I just now did it after I awoke and after I lied in bed for about 20 minutes to a half hour, it's now 3:08 am, and it probably took a half hour to 20 minutes. Now, this means to explain that I actually felt as if it were real, there were no distractions, the rooms I was in were all set to the time and place of the real situations.

Maybe I should clarify as well.

It was like. I remembered a place and a time where I may have allowed myself to become more "primal and physical (desire) based", than anything above that. SO I go to this place, and it's just like I'm re-experiencing it, although I kind of break character and speak out, to the persons involved, and eventually it's like a distant gap created, a void, is breached and a connection is re-made.

Now this all takes place through imagination, nothing more, and I believe that you may be connecting with another's imagination when you do this.

[neopsychic]

This sounds like a trance, I do it a lot but different things happen in mine. Most of it is just talking to people and reworking over things that went bad or good and what whould happen under different situations. Actually Ate you are the only other person I have found that has done trance work like this and not actually tried to (as in use a guide or special music). How long have you been able to do "excercises" like that? For my I could do it in the third grade (7 or 8 prob). I thought it was fun and never thought much of it at the time untill I realized it was kind of a rare thing to do.

[ate]

Based on what you said, it's pretty much the same for me.

It happens while awake, I too thought it was just a game, or at the very best I was a weird kid who daydreamed, but did it with intelligence and power, and guidance instead of just thinking about something without purpose. I thought that way because the people there, and the situations, while known to exist either in a place where my mind is, or only in my mind, still felt real and alive to me. Like there was a teeming of intelligence and I had a gateway. Though I never accepted that fully because of the differences it caused.

I can do it while in motion, active and upright. That's the only thing I find to be unique about myself, in this and every other segment of life, higher and spiritual, or mundane.

I used to be able to do this while fully functional, I think it caused problems though, because it would kind of mesh those experiences with real experiences, I never wondered which were real or fake, but basically it would be like...conversations and interviews occurring in my head with suggestions and even jokes and lessons, while everything around me remained unchanged. The problem was, that I would mesh what I was reviewing, at that moment, with an object or something I saw or basically anything in physical existence and that would constantly shift the topic of what was being focused on, and manifested in thought, into something completely irrelevant to what it was originally.

Although I liked this, because I found if I had nothing to do, I could "think" that, and if I was supposed to be doing something, like in school, and was bored, I would remain moderately active, while running through a list of schemes and situations in my memory in the future or past, or wherever. I still don't know all the affects of that, but I broke the whole streak of doing this from the moment I woke up until I went to bed, for a few years, and although I never stopped altogether because it's just the way I exist in my head, it's the way I think, with lots of these variables, I cut it down alot.

I'm remembering a lot of this as I go along, because like emotional contexts or something, this type of experience has it's own world of memories and lessons, but I remember that a lot of times I would end up imagining, and doing this, while at the same time losing focus, or becoming occupied with something else, and that would cause a random display of emotion or situations which would ultimately confuse me. I think I remember wanting to cut down, because everything would just get too out there and it would be like I would stop realizing where I was and who, and go directly into a "dream segment" at times, and then snap out of it. I think it caused a lot of fear, because the only piece of information in the entire american education system on this is "Don't do it, don't daydream.", which is outright pitiful.