lonewolf training

[lonewolf]

Hey.. welcome.. ill start with what i can do..
also note. im no master (yet) so imstill new toall this.. been doing psioncis for 4 months now. but ive been doing this on/off through out my life. with out relising it..
-empathy
-telepathy
-ap/obe
-rp/rs
-basic energy manip (shields, constructs etc)
-basic healing
-clairvoyant (seeing, hearing, and smells)

UPDATE
-dreamwalking

and a whole lot more.. just read and enjoy!

Im a very nice and friendly guy. just ask JediKaren . i will gladly answer any questions you have. If you would like you can also add me to msn, Always on.. i seem to keep to myself. but you get that. ^_^...

warning to all. my logs do contain fighting.. either psionicly or while in the astral. Read, Keep safe, and be happy

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Thursday, September 29, 2005
i got up, feeling down again, i was trying to sleep in for a few hours, but the sun got me up at 5:50am. i eventually got on Mirc, and told dalerin that im not going to be on for a few months, to clear my head. he took it good, and told the others like i had ask. Im still going to practice Psionics. its just i need space to think.
Dalerin, seems to think it could be an awakening. I dont know. Yoshi is going to scan me and see whats up. idont wont to keep my hopes up to high, falling is something i dont like.

I aped to the temple last night. I used another method, other than my own. as mine was to advanced for me, and it was hit and miss. This new method is easy and it works, so im going to stick to it.

As i aped to the temple, i did my usual thing, goto the front gate. The gate keeper asked my name and i replyed (my real name). he oped the gate and said thank you sir. The main room was looking beautiful, it looked all white and tiled. it still had it main fetures, the 5 suport beams. I could see a few beings around, and some i could reconise. I was looking a bit confused, i couldnt see my guide. i continued to look around for a bit. I then mentaly, said. "were is my guide". i turn around and bumped into this being, i could quite make out his face, but he was tall, and had black hair. he wore black leather, and it looked a tade battle worn. i looked at him, in aw. i thought to myself. this must be him. i think he smiled at me. and i then had a surgestive mental thought. From what i have read about the temple, the guides get a room each. so this was my thought. now weather, I sugested it or not, i cant really tell.
I started to follow him threw a few doors, and up a case of stairs, we then took a right and walked a few metres and he opened his door. i could see much, as my vision was great at all. but after a few minutes i could make out a desk, it was made out of metal and had a glass top. i turned to me left, and there was a wooden bed.
The whole time i was fighting with myself to stay in focus, as i wasnt really in the mood. but after this, i found myself at his desk sitting down on something. i wasnt really paying attention to what i was sitting on. We started to talk and we descuased a few things, and i had my homework. and that was that. i said bye, and left.

The rest of the night i felt like mega nuts, i dont know what it was. i almost cryed a few times. maybe what ever we talked about, stured up some old memories.
i finnaly fell asleep and had a good sleep.

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Friday, September 30, 2005
Last night decided to ap again. while i was getting ready for the ap ther was a lot of disterbence around me room, mainly noises and a few presences. I went to the gate again, and i siad hi, he said im not allowed in, smiled and said only joking. when i walked in everything was blury, i could barly make out anything, but i could sense or at least see bejin, i had the notion to follow him so i did. i dont know were he took me, but he said stop. so i did, and he cept on walking. all of a sudern, it felt like i was in a room, it was blindly white, and i could sense other beings there. i could just see these shadow's of the beings, but they looked kind of scary. but i stayed, and i herd a voice asking me why i was here. i cont remember what i said, all i know is that i must of said something right. he sorta laughed, and i could see a smile forming. we talked for a few more minutes, and i was allowed to go. I found me guide, or really he walked upto me. and said something on the lines of you did good. The room changed again, and it was a room, with padding all around it. i gatherd i was here for sword training. bejin showed me a few stances and how to keep my balance, he also showed me some basic attacking and defending. I was having a really hard time focusing, i keep loosing where i was, on a number of times bejin had to yell at me to get me focused again, i continued on. but it was hopeless i couldnt focus at all. i asked if i could go, and he said yes. he once again said goodwork and replyed thankyou sir, he simply smiled. and went back to my body and woke up.

i had some wierd out dreams last night, one was of a few people i havnt seen in a long time, namely 3 years or so.
The second one, was in a war situation, were i was a commanding officer. it seemed so real. im going to have to think about it, it jsut seemed diffrent. well the freakiest part was waking up to see blood drop on my wall, with the splter mark. whats interesting is, there is no runs in the blood. its as if it was done on the floor. but its on my wall, not the prities thing to wake up to.

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Saturday, September 31, 2005
i had a f***** scary ap last night
i aped to the temple agian, and i walked in, and everything look really old, and there was vines growing up the suport beams
but there was no one there.
i went to my bejin's room, and there was no one there, everything had dust on it, and cobwebs, the place was deserted.
i turn around, and there was this old lady with a cloak and hood on.
she was sayiong somehtings, and after a min, i wasnt bying it.

she turned into a f**king demon, or something. and i was starting to pack myself. i was walking backwards. but the thing, started attacking me. i was bashing against my shields
i got my sword out, preparing for the worst.
and i dont know what the f*** happend, but all of a sudern, i had this super high energy flux, i felt just so strong, it was really amasing, so i sent fake attack from behind it. then i rused at it
it grabed me, and started to rip me into.
i managed to teleport away
and i did so a few times
then i went right upto it. but my back faceing me. and i stuck my sword into it to its gut,and followd the blade up threw it head.

but i dont know. it felt like my sword got stuck..
any ways. there was some dogs arounjd, i think there were there to attack me or siomethings. i told them to look around for anyone else. but they came back, with nothing, i then went back tot he main room, and again . nothing. i woke up.
the whole night i kept having random pains, in my side.and my energy was fluxing like super crazy
i was afraid to fall asleep, even though i couldnt. becuase i didnt wont to be attacked again
i think after a few hours, i managed to fall back to sleep


recape. talking to a friend, he found my sword out of pure luck, and didnt distroy it, he said he had a hunch it was mine. the monster has been creating havoc in the temple plane latly, so it not going to be around much longer.

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Monday, October 2, 2005
hey, im only going to say a few words, that could explain some things..
mindscape
i finally relise what this means
that i have been projecting to my mind. ive been facing something. i cant really explain it.
i just tryed to ap then, but i was VERY clear, that there was to be no bullnuts, i wanted to the temple, and that was it.
i was sorta angry, about the whole current situation. but anywats
i went about my normal busness, i did what i usually do. and i got to the temple. iwalked in, i decided to stand in the middle of the main room. i said a little pray, and i was only ment to prick my finger.
but in stead, i started to slash my wrists, and continuioing up me arm, and across my chest, and down the other arm.
at this time, i was starting to get f**king anoyed, knowing that this wasnt the temple.
i know for a fact that ive been there at least one. or twice.
i came back to my body. and repeated the same thing.
saying that im sick and tired of this stupid place, and i wont in.
after about 30 minutes. of jsut resting. and after all that time, of "let your energy flow"
my third eye, started to feel some presure. i knew at once, that there were trying to help me.
i continued this path for a little, while. slowly getting my vision (threw my psyical eyes, not my mind)
i could make out peoples out lines, and i could make out faces.
i could see this person, with his hand out. and i was trying so hard to help myself up.
they tried sending some more psi to me. and it helped a bit
i used every once of will power i had
but i had to stop. and it killed me. i got so angury, i went back into my mindscape, and started to punch and kick at this punching bag with everything i had. it did the trick, i cam back.
this time i was al most crying.
i was walking to the kitchen, and it hit me. mindscape.
it sudernly all made sense.
i had this being, a woman, saying that were i was going, wasnt the real temple. and that bejin was just an alto ego. and that she was my guide.
this happend at work on friday...
i spent the next 2 or so hours, arguing to her, that this couldnt be true.
but now i know. she was right. i was stupid. and im ashamed of myself

recape. the lady i herd wasnt my guide.. i think i miss herd her. but latly there has been a female projecting to me.. so i dont know.. some reading about the mindscape can be found here.

http://psiteach.proboards33.com./index.cgi?board=introductiontoastralproject&action=display&thread=1128849343

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Tuseday, October 3, 2005
Last nights ap, was interesting. i couldnt make out much, and such. but practice makes perfect.

Ok here is the lowdown, i was talking to friend online. and i found out that he was the one i bumped into.
we talked abit, and he says that i look alot like him, sorta vamp looking. Now the funny thing, is that he also says that he hasnt seen anyone else who looks like us.
It's very interesting, he also says, that when im in the temple. ( i cant see) that i bump into walls and objects. i asked if anyone laghs at me, and he says no, but they laughed when i bumped into him ^_^. he also said that i was unarmed, funny being the case i went with out my sword, wich i never do. but anyhow. He also said that he saw me with a being, that he couldnt see. he/she must of been hiding from him.I can only speculate that this was the being that talked to me at work on Thursday. i can only asume that this happened when i was asleep, because i have no recolection what so ever.
He also said that im very fast. Now fast at what i need to know. ^_^. i think he was refering to my running. but who knows. ill have to ask him.
im going to ap again tonight. he says that i should be able to see much better this time. he seemed pritty sure so. i cant wait.
theres nothing really more to add, exept i got the house tomyself again. woot. its nice and all having the cat inside for once.
well till tomoro

recap. yes im fast in the astral but not faster than my friend.. one must understand that in the astral you can move at the speed of thought.. the onlything that is slowing you down... is you.

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Saturday, October 8, 2005
i was starting to get light headed, and i could feel this difrent psi around me. i dont know what it was, or who. so i decided to ap, and maybe ill findsome answers..
i ap, and i found myself in a room, while with no doors. i wasnt wearing my usual cloths, but i sorta looked around the room for clues.

so were was i. oh yeah. i decided to sit down and sense the doors, there was 4, on on each wall. after a bit, i decided to go for the door on my left. i was right, it opened to a tunnel or something, i made a psiball to give off white light, it work but as soon as i steped forward,.. i can explain this by there was no space in this tunnel. no light and no shadow, so my ball did squat all >.< I walked to the end were the light was coming from, i walked in. and there was again more door. i looked tot he middle and there was my cloths and my sword etc. i chaned outof the cloths i was in, and back into my astral cloths. i suited up and did the same thing, sensed the doors. opened one. and it led tothe desert, i steped forward and i tryed to go back, but the doorway dissapeared. i dont know what happened, i just had this notion to goto this place that phoul once showed me, in a dream. i did. i went there. there was a watch tower. and i went inside. the two guys freaked out. and was like who are you. i said my real name. and they said i was lieing. and that i was an imposter.

i then found myself in a room, with this dude. i couldnt make him out. but i was sent to this jail cell. i presumed under the city. i herd this voice of a little girl, who i have spoken to before. we started to talk. and all i can remember is this figure. (i thought it was phoul, i still dont know) he got me out.

the next thing i wake upm and im in the main room. with people holding me down, telling me everything is ok. and that it was a bad dream or something. i felt like i was on a strecher or something. i herd phoul (still dont know) if i was ok. and i said yes. he went. they had me lie down reall still, i had to lie strait in RL too. they strarted to heal me or something, i felt wired energy around

my forehead. i was told to sleep. but i couldnt, the lady (i dont know who she was) keep repeating this. i asked if my guide was here. that guy again smilled at me, and said yes, but that i wont be able to see stupid eh

the few of them did this for a while and they eventually left. the lady still stayed with me. telling me that everything was ok, and not to worry about things (i herd noises in RL and was starting to freak out) i was held down again, saying not to worry. she sent more energy to me. and after a bit, this image startred to form. i could make a door way with stairs or something. i just couldnt belive

what i saw, i keep (in RL) putting my hand over my eyes, thinking this isnt real, but i could see. to a degree it was so amasing (threw my psyical eyes) the lady told me to fall asleep and i should wake up back there. she left. what i could sense. and i tyryed for a few hours, but eventually woke up. and she said dosnt matter, just get some rest. and that was that..

recape.. and amasing expericen.. the lady turned out to be a healer.. thanks to Karen, she was the one who asked for the help!

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Sunday, October 9, 2005

i went to the temple as a wolf again, i walked in and no one around. i tryed to leave but he doors were close. a guardian (i think) (seen him a few times befor too) and he walked in, and asked me why i was a wolf again, and if i was the one causeing trouble.

i just said no, and explained that this in the second time, and i just got here. he sorta smiled. and said ok. and he went away


i wondered were phoul was, [havnt seen or herd from him (RL) for a few days] and i just thought that he was training again. so i went to the room that he normally trains in.

i always enter the room, in the far corner, so i dont interuped anyone. but i couldnt see him. a could sense a few others, training. sparing and practicing. i decied to sit down and meditate. i did and afew minutes later i her a voice(i though i was imagining it.) but i woke up to see the old man again. and he said come this way. so i followed him.

i was led upto this other being. who looked formilure. so i said hi. he asked if i wonted to train also. and i said thanks, but i would like to meet my guide first etc. and he said thats ok. he intoduced me to this guy.

he was black and he was training with someone who i coulnt see. i think his name was tay, but didnt really understand. he looked really intense. and the old man asked if i wonted to fight him. i said no. he said ok. he later said i could of easly of won, but also mentioned that throu my lack of knowlage we would both get hurt. this guy looked really angury at me for some reason. who knows.

so anyhow, i was talking to this guy. and i introdueced myself. and i stared to talk. now about what i cant remember.. but anyhow. i sorta had the notion. that i wonted to show this guy what i could do. turnig into a wolf. the old man said sure, over tp. so i did. and i let out this growl and it felt like the whole class looked at me. so turened back.

as i was leaving, the old man stoped me, and we started to talk. we talked about afew people and i left

recape. friend said, yeah tay is one of the protectors in training. intesting eh?

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Monday, October 18, 2005

well i went to the temple..and i saw phoul.. i did the healing/cleansing on him. and i said i would give him some healing while we were aping... (btw.. i have made him psyically stronger..he can how punch a wall and put a crack in it..but imight of awakened something. i dont really know..beacuse i dont understand.) and way i was going to heal him...but i desided to see if i could assend.

i cant raelly explain it..but i grew wings..and i was glowing bright gold..and there was a beam of this light shining on me..

phoul confirmed it..and said it was amasing..

also..jsut as i changed. this old lady (who was VERY unpset) said that my kind was NOT alowed in the temple... i argued that angels are allowed. she said yes but not you..at that time phoul told her i was allowed.and to ask his master (head of the protectors)..at that time he showed up and said i was allowed to practice and took the lady away..

and then i did my thing..and healed him..

i cant remember after that...

recape.. to go back to the begining.. ive had wings in the astral for awhile. but was told that no one would be able to see them. I do have phantom wings in RL.. i can see the outline when i look into the mirror.. more on that later...

Here are some chat logs..

<lonewolf> oh. and i did some healing to you at the temple..
<Phoul> i noticed
<Phoul> you was standing ova me
<Phoul>
<lonewolf> was there a glow around me? like a beam of light coming down fromt he sky over me?
<Phoul> yeah
<Phoul> i was kinda wondering what that was
<Phoul> i asked but you never answered i figured you couldnt hear me
<lonewolf> WOOT
<lonewolf> i tryed to ascend my angel side.. or my higher self..
<lonewolf> to help me heal you
<Phoul> yo thanks

<lonewolf> to go off subject.. i still trying to find im part angel..
<lonewolf> im not an angel. becauase my vibrations aint high enugh..
<Phoul> part
<lonewolf> kk
<lonewolf> did you see my wings this time around?
<Phoul> and yes

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Wednessday, October 19, 2005
i was pritty upset last night... i wanted to emat my guide. and i state im going to meet him

well i got home. and phoul was knocking on my wall again. and my gudie was bugging me to go..so i eventually went.. i was so norvouse.. anyhow
i went to my mindscape and waited till i relaxed more. i aid i would meet him in the main room. so i went there. i went throu the frount door, and the guide said that somene was waiting for me..at first my heart was going nuts. so i walked over ot the right wall. and closed my eyes and tryed to relax as much as i coyuld.. i herd this voice that said hello. i though i was dreamin it but i opene my eyes and someone was standing in front of me.. i could see him. but i asked if he was my guide. i was so happy i just hugged him. we started to talk and and i asked if we could go topside.. phoul was up there waiting for me. and i introdueced them two,. but i have a feeling that they know each other.. any how he wasnted to talk in private..

i followed him down and throu the main room. i dont know were he took me., but i followed. he led us to a small room and we both sat down.. we started to talk about why he was there. becuse i wonted some answers.. so i asked him.. was i an angel or what. or part angel. he said that he can answer some questions but some he cant.. he said yes /no about that one. and he left it for later. i then asked about my white aura. did it mean spiritual signifcense and angelic abilites. he asnwer with it means what ever you wont it to.. so i figures it was something to do with my healing and my angel experince.. i asked if i was a healer. and he said i was. i stated that a friend said i wasnt jsut any healer. and he aslo said that is true.. i aksed if me turning into a wolf is significant.. and he said to you yes. but to others no. I then asked if phoul could train me, and he said it was my choise.. so im going to strart training. another question was about a gurl and i. are we ment to be together. and he said if for us to work out.

i was going to ask who that lady was,. but i was interupted.. i think she was the head healer..or something like that

my attention was divertied to my mum knocking on my door. asking what im doing *sigh* i told he to go away, and she eventualy did. i aped back and i could see him this time.. ive seen him befor. he was the oldman in a boat. that was in my mindscape..a lake in the forrest. i think he was suprised that i could see him so fast. but yeah

He said that if i need help that i couldnt work out, he would be there for me. but he knows that i can figure out things for myself. if not i know someone who can help me.
He said it was my choise to be an angel. or a guardian angel.. but its a very hard life to live. and most people go crazy ebacuse they cant handle the responability. i said that i had a hunter/worrior in me, and i wonted to be like phoul. a asked if i could be a guardian angel and a protector. he said its posible but not many poeple have actually done it. he said that phoul was in traing to be a guardian aswell. i asked why phoul and i look the same. (we both know that our destiney are intwined..) he replyed with. you and phoul are special. your part of the great plane or something like that..

I asked if i chose to be a guardian would i start to look mroe liek and angel. he said not as first. but as i start each chapter of my journey i would. he said that the more pages i read the more frequent i would look like one. and in the end i would always look like one.. i asked if i acended again, could i go and visit the higher plane. he said maybe.. i would only be alowed if my intent was pure, and they are happy with my progress.

we ended the session there, with me having no more questions. i said thanks alot and god bye..

i went strait to the roof top. and told phoul everything. im so happy now. still confused but happy. i then left and typed this up before i would foget.. the sesion went for alsot 50 mintues.. which is pritty aveage.. but agian happy

recap.. to make it clear.. guardian angel imnot.. but i was only symbolsiing that to me an angel means healing and to be a protector is to be a fighter.. how ever.. just because i dont have the label. Guardian.. dosnt mean i will stop helping others..
One important lesson i have learnt..is that not everyone Wants to be healed, You can only help those who ask and who are willing to help themselfs. Other wise its pointless to every degree.

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Thursday, October 20, 2005
phoul was busy making my thum hurt. so i tryed to ap or rp to the temple.i morphed into my wolf. i saw him and growled and i made this big gush of wind. he started to run around everywere and they started to chase me. it was so funny. they eventually corned me, and i fell over on my back and started to laugh so hard. i went abck to mnormal state and kept laughing. at first they didnt find it funny but they lighted up after a few.. lol oh well i then went back to work

I got home today, and Phoul was trying to contact me.. so i aped. i walked throu the front door. and there was about 6or so armed protectores. i froze with my hands in the air. one protector looked at me and said i can pass.. i asked were phoul was he said i dont know. then i herd one say in the forrest. so i went there. i flew over the trees and spoted him. i satdown next to him. and westarted to talk. i told him there was something going on in the temple he said i know. its a test to see if they can handle it with out me. i made a promise that i would make a white orb for someone. so i asked phoul if he wanted to see my accend again so i did so. i then told him im going for a minute. befor i left. i handed him my right wing. and told himto take a feather..he did and looked confused. i said to keep it close, i have a feeling that it will give you healing or something like that..and off i went.. so i left i found my friend and she looked upset. she did say she was down.. i dont know if this happened but this is as i saw it..i made the orb for her. and i went to her. she was walking in a hall. at school and i bumped into her. she fell over and i helped her up.. i then made everyone froze and i talked to her. i then clensed her and i told her the orb is around. and i kissed her ont he forhead and left. i then went back tothe forrest and tryed to find phoul he was nowere to be seen. i went back to the main door. and walked in. everyone stared at me..( i was still in an angel form) and i sighed i saw my guide, he shook his head but chuckled to himself. i thought meh. i then asked to see my friends guide and she appeared. she looked at my wings and isaid. dint expect to see me like this. she looked speachless but said no ididnt. i told her that i saw my firend and told her what i did. she alrady knew. becase she tryed to stop me. but i argued that i gave my word and that i wouldn rather die. than hurt her.. she gave up after a while and let me go.. my brother was at the door. isaid sorry i must go,m and i retured to my body

i had an intersting convo with what i think was an angel. he/she said that im not and angel or a guardian angel. im half cased.. he went on. etc. and i again said i dont car if im and angel or not. im going help people no matter what. so he/she let down after a few mintes and left.. my guide came throu and said dont lisean to them. and repeated myself and he seemed cool with it..

as im typing this phoul was making my thumb hurt. i closed my eyes and tryed to lisean.. i felt like i was in a room with 5 or so angels. and one in front said that i didnt decend. and that i shouldnt of done that. the next one came throu and said its ok...you can stay like that.. you can learn to stay in this form for a periaod of time. and i agreed. the next one said that they are watching over me and not to push myself to hard. i agreed said sorry about 10 times. said thanks and left.
i then imagened the light fading and going away and me returning to my self..


so ive deiced to still be a guardian. but of earth.. i know inside what to expect and what i must do..in time iwill venture off fromt he astral and go around healing/clensing and helping others in RL..im also going to learn RP (remote presence) so i can interact with humans in the real world.. next week im going to start my training scedual. and im going to try and keep with it..i need to ask phoul about the protector position. if i can be one. or do i have to try out. and if i decied to leave can i.. well untill about 2am i wont know.. so imgoing to get myself up at that time and chat to him.

ive also noticed my intuition/pregoc are getting more and more frequent... and i cant bend anyones will anymore.. i sorta can. but not as much as i could before all this.. oh well. its no biggie..ill learn to live with it.

recap.you cant leave the protecotrs for no reason.. and im not going to train to be one. how ever, im still going to train with him

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Sunday, October 24, 2005
i was taken by the guy again. and he told me to close my eyes. so i did, he took me back to that place, and i was trying to see the temple.. but i wasnt in it, so i took some timeforme to calm down to see. so i told him what i senced and he said good enigh, i opened my eyes and wow., a huge hall way with BIG doors..
i was told to walk to the doors. but i was so heavy. it ws like something was holding me back. so i went through my mind and went fear:gone doubt:gone and after a fewmore all what has holding me abck went.. he then told me to go in
i opened the door and it was so blinding white. i closed it. and he said if you can stand 10 mitnues in there, you going good
i went it, and i strted to fly around, got scared becuase i didnt know were the doors were. so i went back to the hallway
he said what wrong and i told him. he smiled. i asked if everyone goes throhg this and he said at first yes
so i went back in. and istarted to meditate in there
after a few minuites.. i could here a baby crying.. i looked around and i found this small house..
i went over to it and looked inside.
and thre was this darkevil dude in thre trying to steal the baby,. i imedaintly shielded the baby and he droped it, and i used tk to slow it down untill i just touchged the floor. i then shielded up and he hit me, and i went flying.. i came back insdie and he said that this baby was going to destroy the world i said why should you care? you wonna do the same. she got anoyed and left
i then placed the baby back into the crib and waited out side
he cryed again, and i went back in..i have to bloody change his dyper..(he smelt bad) and put him back, i wondered were his mother was. so i looked around the house for a picture and i sawone.. i then teleported her to the baby and told her what happned.. then all of a suden these other evil mosnters tryed to attack the ouse and i shieled it to, and i fought them off and made them disapeare..
the guy shook me and i woke up.. was i dreaming all this, he pointed to the house, and it had the shield i put over it.. he said thought is very powerfull
i complained that my shoulder hurts and he lead me to a healer..
she had me lay down. and to relax and close my eyes
she tryed diffrent things but she said that i had damaged a nerve..
and she tryed to heal it. but nothing was happening..
then all of a sudern. boom my heart chakra opened
and it started to pump out loads and loads of energy
it was the most intsence and unconftable experince EVER.. she told me it was ok to stop but i went at if fot almsot and hour
by the end i chouldnt take it anymore. and i elft
a friend surgested that they were getting ride of energy blocks in my system
btw my guide was with me also
he said that i can talk to him tomorrow

i never really went back.. ive been way to busy latly..i dont really speak with my guide, Damien. but oh well

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Wednessday, October 27, 2005
Hmm how do i start my really good day? hmm. it goes back. to a simple sign. when i met a good friend, he can make my right thumb hurt when he needed me (or jsut plainly knock on my walls. and vice versa (altho im not really good at knocking..just yet mwahah *cough* ha)) the second sign that i asked an angel to do, was if he needed me, or wanted to talk. to make my left thumb hurt. ( he was the first angel i was incontact with, he has showem me places etc, and he has taken me back for training, so i consider him my master. for respectful puposes. last but not least, if my guide wants me. my right pinky dose the trick.. what dose this have to do with an awakening? ill geto that part sometime today ) I was in the shower and i saw this really bright white spark in the air. Much bigger than any ihave seen, out of the corner of my eye. i ignored it, saying im having a shower.. anyhow again the spark apeard in a diffrent spot. so i closed my eyes and liseaned. it went something like this. "hi, im hear to tell you, that your not ready for an awakening, YOU must take things really slow, WE dont wont to see you get hurt. so PLEASE dont push yourself, we know you have strong will and correct intentions but please wait" i was like ok (ive herd this from angels and psychics to many times over the past week lol. ) i asked his name. now i dont know if they came through correctly or not. but he said "Michael" i said thanks and he went away. I went to work with the question of "am i going to get fired today?" my boss and i sat down and discused a few things and everything was good. ( i was dreading that for 3 days, after i called in sick and he had a go at me I guess my first question is, dose one normally feel this when the 'awakening' proces has started? and how long dose it go for? i dont mind the pain, being a natural healer and a huge tolerance to pain helps some. So ive diced to let things go. The whole week they have been arguing with me to let them send energy to me, etc. i think they prosponed the actual awkening beacuse i wasnt ready. Anyhow. i do need to talk to my friend, he is training with an angel called magus. if anyone has herd of him. My friend and i are like brothers destered to be friends for ever. and ive been told this by alot of beings. but yeah.

so tonight i feel is going to be somewhat painfull. my right shoulder blade seems to be hurting the most. but it doesnt really bother me to much. have to wait and see what happens to morrow ^_^. im planing on aping tomorrow night and see how things are going.

recap, yes i talked to Archangel Michael. i also talk to Archangel Gabriel. They are both helping me along my journey.

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Sunday, October 30, 2005
Hey, how have you been? Been told by an entity that my awakening has started, how every the change is to big for me to take all at once..so there give it to me bit by bit. as it were. I know of a friend who can speack to the archangel Michael, he came down and spoke to me. and said a few things. I was curuse to see if it really was Michael, so i asked a friend and he replyed "yes, you did talk to him". It seems that Michael and Gabriel have been looking after us, i say us becuase both of them have helped my friend and his parter. There is also 2 others who i talk to, that have wings, i cant belive i let it slip though my fingers. Im glad i had the courage to talk to him, he has given me asnwers to most of my imediant questions, about an awakening. It seems that its painfull because im resisting, we are also both fairly confident that the angel who is looking after me (apart from Gabriel) is a female. She has been masking my psi sig, to 'hide' me. My awakening started last week wednesday. Ive been meditating and trying to help the process along as best i can.

I looked into the mirror the other day, and i could see the outlines of my 'wings' but barely. A friend also scanned me and had a quick glipms of them while scanning. everyday poses some sort of task, so far i have acepted things, that they are because its ment to be. The angel(s) who are looking over me, also have but a very harsh limit to my real energy. But, its always been there, so i guess they have had an eye on my for along time.

My friend also said that afterwoods, i would have a very hard time controlling my abilites as such. I tryed to do some telekenesis, and i could barely move the paper :/. He explained, to just make it simple. try not think about it, but just do it. He also mentioned that once its complete that i wont have to consentrate very little to get results. He said that my sub-con will be working with me, at the same time, so naturaly it going to be hard at first ^_^. well i always love a chalange!

Sometimes i ask myself why me. As they chose you, not the other way around. I have come to the conclustion that throughout my lives, i have done many good things. Weither there is alink between the angel and i, and if it was the same in previouse lives i dont know. I had a vision while meditating today. I was an angel and there was my other friend, and he fell or jumped off a cliff and i went after him, cought him but i couldnt stop. he looked at me and said to let him go, so i could live. a second later i was back up the top with him in my arms, and i droped him over the edge. I was condemd to my sins and my punishment was to live a mortal life with a human soul. I then went down to were my friend lay and brang him back to life. i just started to cry in my vision, i could feel the tears run down my face in RL, but there were none.

I still dont understand what this means, maybe its the key to why they chose me. becuase i have sinned and repayed my sins through many lives of good and helping. but i dont know.

well, its just an update on my current situation, thanks for reading

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

Tuesday, Novemeber 1, 2005

Hey,
Talking to a friend i have 3 angels looking over me, Michael who ihave spoken to once. and his fellow brother Gabriel, who ive been speaking to for a while. Gabriel is the one watching over me. BUT there is another Archangel who is helping me along. We confirmed it was female. but are clueless to whome she is. I told my LD to a nother friend who swore he had the same one. mentioned the name Crystal. Ive been looking all over the net for information on *Ophaniel and Crystal* but have come up empty handed. Just wondering if anyone has any information about her or them.

It seems that she has but up a camo for my psi sig (like a finger print, everyones is diffrent, but just like a finger print can be fooled) She has also but a block on my energy so i cant have my full potential. Now its been there for a while (while meaning most of my life) so i cant put it down, to just being the awakening affecting it. Iam having a rather hard time controlling my abilites, but i know thats just the norm.

recap, It wasnt Crystel that we thourgh was doing the things.. it turns out to be Uriel..More on that later

your friend
lonewolf