lonewolf training

[lonewolf]

Odd few days..

i aped to another place with ruby, this place looked like a huge factory with cat walking around it. and i think outside was a pool. Ruby said that this place was the common room for the wolf temple. they do training here.
that was an added bonus

talked to archangel michael today, he seemed worried about me and there has seems to be a few beings testing my lyalty. he showed me what i though was real, but turned out to be a simulation. I saw my wolves fighting against the angels. and the wolves were winning? i asked why the wolves were doing so good. he replyed that i had taught them how to fight like an angel, and the lightness. he said that the wolves i see are luyal to me. i was still confused, he looked at me again. "they [the wolves] are following your battle tatitics", HUH mine?? he said that i have been in seevral wars. i knew that i have, but was also trying to run away from that. he said that iam a warrior, and not to run away from the past [meaning my past wars]. he noted it was just a simulation. i looked at him and knew he was testing my lyualty, i looked him in the eyes and said that im luyal to god and the angels. He noded and i sensed he already knew it. but was asking me anyway.

also today, during work i went to the phenix temple and walked towards the table that i drew that picture on. i saw a couple of children there lauging and admiring the drawing. i sat next to them, and asked them if they liked the darwing. "yes we do" they asked if i knew him, and said he is a good friend and smiled. i asked if they knew anything about lonewolf. They looked at me with glee "he is a strong fighter and he is fast. forget the rest" they looked down at the floor " MR.lonewolf is also currupt and is influenced by his own way, and some other crap". i was shocked thats not me. i asked if they knew about him being angel, once again they looked down and said "it is only a cover he is [something something]". I asked them quickly who taught them, they pointed to there parents. They saw me and looked the other way, trying to hide there faces. i got really anoyed, the parents walked past and ushered the kids out. i grab the fathers hand really tight and told him to stay. "he waved at the kids and said, be a minute". i grabed him by the scruff of his shirt and threw him against the wall with his feet dangleing a few inches above the ground. "i screamed at him. i screamed so loud i could hear it echo at the light temple. i just scremed WHY, WHY." ruby walked up behind me, and tapped me on the shoulder. and said its ok. "let hime go". i looked him in the eyes and said you tell those kids the truth, im not curropt etc. "yes,, yes sir" "DONT CALL ME SIR" "its lonewolf, not sir or MR, not teacher or anything. lonewolf" and let him go, he ran out the door really fast.
Ruby looked at me and said lets goto my room talk there. i teleported to her room, and rambled on about it abit. she siad i know. someone wants you out of the picutre. I sighed, i feared it for a few weeks. it would seem im not the only one... she looked abit angry at me, but still walked upto me and gave me a kiss. i fell onto her bed, and kissed her some more. she said, sorry goto go.. i just layed there on my side with a smile. "cya hun" .

i followed her in my little wolf form, she laughed and said something. i then went back to my normal size and followed her into the main room. for some reason somebeings were looking at me. and ruby knew it, she stoped also and looked at me. "what other animals can you change to" i shrugged and then changed into a 9 tale fox. this is a demon fox btw. the old buggas almost had a heart attack, i sorta chuckled. ruby looked at me odd, but pleaseing in a way. she said ok what else. i went back to my normal human self, and waved at the old beings. they sighed and the look on there faces surgested, fewf its you.. i then changed in to a beautifull wight horse, i left my pair of angel wings and place a horn on the front of my head. ruby looked exited, i see her now like alittle kid at a fair. seeing a unicorn on a merigo rounds, her eyes said it all. she mounted me and took off. i shruged, and bilocated back to the main room. Looking out the double doors i see my and her on my back riding, really really fast into the forrest.
i looked at the old beings again, smiled and walked back to rubies room. and dropped from the ap.

later in the day..

my left thumb was hurting like crazy, i had to hold it with my other hand it was hurting sooo much. It was michael seemingly yelling at me. He showed me a mental image of a little child, i asked were is she "the lower planes" i went there faster than you could say yahoo.. i scanned the area and was about to go and get her, but michael stoped me. and pointed out the negs commin her way, i got really *not sure what :S* and chared to the girl, i kneled down to her and she looked at me she didnt seem scared at all. i sensed the negs coming in really fast. i looked around for anything, i knew they could follow me back to the light temple. i looked up and colin came floating down, i said shutup and come here quickly. i teleported us to the church [yes there is a church in "hell"]. i screamed at colin to shield us with darkness, he couldnt figure out why. but i made him. he did so and i shield us with light below the darkness so it wouldnt affect the little girl. we stood there, colin soon relised why i asked him to do that. the negs walked in and sneared over to us,,. "have you seen a little girl" no. "what are you hiding" its only a boy. i pushed the child infront of me. "ah well, {licking lips}" something distracted him and they all left.
i got colin to hold my shoulder while the child was holding my hand, i wraped colin in my wing and we teleported above the light temple. i could hear the child screaming "mummy, mummy" i got the shield of darkness off us and looked the girl in the eyes, she looked 4 maybe 5. i wondered how she got down here i really do. i looked down and spotted the girls child. i took her down and she ran to her mum. She cried but taped the childs bumb, "where did you find her" "i sighed and siad the lower planes". she said thank you, and left with the child.

colin was now standing near me and i guess he figured it all out as he didnt ask anymore questions. i then found myself and colin back in the phenix temple, main room. i was messing around and was turning into a phenix body part by body part. i felt like being a clown so only changed my upper body, i then popped into a fluffy rabit and colin almost had a heart attack laughing so hard. i hoped over to his shoe and left a nice smelly preasy [ at this time i ran like i have never ran in my life] he chased me for a while and i leped into the sky and change into a phenix and flew faster, but i sense colin about to apear infront of me. so i stoped as i did, he aprered. i fell down like a bird just being shot. i hit the ground and started to laugh even harder. colin looked worried and knelt next to me * i stoped laughing when he aporched* he was about to poke me or something and i went into a laughing fit. he started to laught too.. i had fun :0

got SDC tonight. so post when i get home
your freind
lonewofl
ps
ive been having so many memories flooding my mind, its so overwhelming. i dont know what to do, one just leads to the other, doing simple things or people saying/writing a phrase somehow triggers a memorie. Some times even several, im finnally starting to feel like im getting somewhere. a close friend hasnt been well, and i feel bad that i havent gone and seen her. maybe this weekend, if its ok by her. i wont to see her befor she goes

[lonewolf]

today i tried to find something for a friend. unfortunatly everytime i tried i got distracted.

i was out ansering calls, people who were calling out my name(s). i found myself in a room. there was this little girl, she looked like ruby *i swear*. she was praying for me, to protect me. i knelt infront of this girl, and gently held her hands as she prayed. i said, "thankyou, but it is i who watch out for the earth and its creatures, i protect them" she opened her eyes. She looked happy to see me, ive never seen this child in my life, and how did she know me? she said amen, and she just stared at me... she opened her mouth and said " do you know who iam". i shook my head, and said "no, i dont know who you are". she said, "im your daughter" *i was in shock, thinking how???* she said "mummy said you might not of rememberd me, you are starting on your path and your getting there". i was and still am wondering who she was... im opened minded, but gee... i left her and she screamed out DADDY repeativly. i stoped and wispered in her ear, "im always here for you. as long as i exist in your heart i can never die".

i dont know if it was ruby as a child, or i furture aped. or if it is my child, in the astral.. im so lost here..

i talked to ruby and she was as confused as i was.. so got nother there :s

i had another memory *well im getting them at an alarming rate!!* i showed ruby it and she looked scared out of her wits, i think she screamed LEAVE.. so i teleported us back to the phenix temple. she said that its a place they sought people for the rose section. she was terrafied of this place, so i didnt talk about it again.
its odd, im remebering more of that visit and im iffy about it.

a few more things, but maybe later..

SDC went ok, new person showed up. i think im tired of "can anyone see *****, raise your hand.
"oh, we know you can daniel. *waves your arm down*..."
its starting to get anoying!!.
a lady was talking about when she got attacked spiritually, as she lived near fremantle prision *in perth. were i live* it was used for the convicts, and its used for tour's now. Its really really haunted my kind of place to show lost souls the light and kill negs feasting on the fear. *nods*.
anyway, i could also feel the places were she got attackedm and leant over a lady and asked her. the teacher ushered everyone to stop talking at once. * i though o great, now everyone going to hear me...* i started to talk again. and the lady agreed with what i felt. the lady who i lent over looked at me oddly.. "you can do that".. i just nodded.

i guess i do know some really cool things, but like i keep saying.. i dont consider myself psychic, or advanced. i do call myself aware, and a highervibrational being. but that dosnt make me a better person! *in the sense of being human, and manners etc.*

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

to life i bring thee, a simple wish from me. Make it swift, make it true. I hope you, will wish me too. On this star we call home, simple wish of the soul. I hold the in my hands, last breath. I asked the lord, the savour, the holy spirit. Enable me, to grand these wishes. I plant the sead, the seed of life. I humbly feed this tree, watching it grow. Befor me stands the tree of life, how simple think i know. i ask thee, simple and short. help me, help the world..- lonewolf

i stand in front of the pefect me, i see him with the smile for me. i look closer at this perfect person, i sample the looks the smile the smarts of this perfect being. I look at it, with my eyes, i would rather live my life of pain. I see the perfect me as a jail, not be free. why live when nothing to live for. i see myself though perfect eye's, i pitty that fool. I see his struggle and he dose try, but he cant help anyone, he cant help himself...


i see the moon in all its glory, i see the moon shining on earth. i can stand on the moon, and shine with it too. but i know i cant shine with out the sun. i wonder why i prase the moon, when the sun is more at heart. i see the stars twinkle and smile, i see the sun similing too. i look into the darkness, and relise its ture. the soul is just like space, so vast and empty. i call the moon home, for iam simple. im a wolf by nature and human by name, i call to the moon for interanl help. angels watch me in this pain, see me weep as i call out there name. simple few and complex of many, why iam here. only i can know...

if i could cry, i would you know. if i could die, i could you know. if i could save this humanity, buy i have to ask. can you save a sheep? and in numbers few? i would do both, cry and die. for the sacrifice of many more, just like jesus the savour of men, he was also a twin you know. if you were told that the world can handle you.. wouldnt you wont to roll over too? i sit here and i grow in strength, im a mule and stuburn like on too.... simple world, complex view, sheep are narrow minded and so are we. they say the merry are few, hold what you have and cry a few. life is short, time is the encence. hold your loved ones, hold them tight. and cry a few...

Life is like a painting, it is what you make it out to be. was it a curse to be born aware, diffrent to others? im not speacial, i dont call myself different. i dont call myself advanced, i dont wont any tittle. i just wont to be me, mellow and happy. i feel like im not even ment to be here, im ment to be the strong one of my generation. i dont feel strong, i dont feel week. iam me, why cant anyone else see it like that? people are always comparing themselves with others, is that normal? i say be happy with what you got, there are people out there far worse of than you. jelousy, hatered, anger, depression, fustration, anxiety why cant they just vanish, if i could be alive to see the world happy at once, even if it was for a second.. then i could smile at humanity, i just feel so un alike toanyone. I look around, i think psychic things every day. i look and see mechanics, buisness people etc.. money, money.. there are few people i see who care more about themselves and more about other people... we choise to live the way we do, im just confused to why people chose that way of life..

everyday i feel like walking away, coming back in a few years. see how things have progressed, i just cant. i hate it when people push me away, or dislike me for anything. to me im nothing to fear, or be jelouse about. im not perfect, im pathetic at english and my skills in everything else are below average. why do people compare me to others, people should be happy with themselves. they should concentrate on other things, unlike making themselves into something they are not..

the poor want to be rich, the rich wont to be kings. the kings wont to be poor, because they have everything. no one is happy with that they have got. not even me, i complain about many things, simple or not.
i just with people would take me serusly, and for who and what iam. is that just soooo hard??? its like im telling people i can fly in RL.. the term "stick with your own kind" comes to mind.. iam i forever ment to just be here, and feel like crap. i was so happy when i woke up. i come home after a whole day of anxiety attacks and me worrying about things...

why do transitions have to be so painfull, emotionaly and physically.. they just have to be soo slow, that you can feel every twist and bump... i feel so weak and pathetic, me stong. why do people keep saying that, its starting to get me really agrovated. why dont i feel strong, i feel me. if people think this is strong, then so be it. but to feel the sense of strong. wouldnt that be nice..
will, what is this thing.. free will, it feels like no one has fee will anymore, there just robots.. they get up and goto work, come home and sleep. they do this everyday for decades.. would you feel like a robot??? i was told that i am 50% incharge of my life, that 50% of me you cant see the furture nothing, unpredictable. that is free will.. is it fare that not everyone has this like few of us do??

i got good news yesterday, that the teacher in my class told my mums friend *at work* that i could posibly go up to the healing class's next week.. it normally takes 6 months to get there, not 4 weeks... i came into that place completly not really needing to. But i now feel attached to these people i see, and who are in my class. there like a whole new bunch of friends.... i think i will miss them if i leave that class.. im then faced with the uncertienty of the next class.. will they accept me too??

right now, my energy is fluxing like crazy, i keep getting hotter and hotter. my forehead was tingley, then burning and now painfull.. ive got so much to think about, and to do.. i still feel that my life here is short, but i feel compeled to stay and see the furture and watch humanity grow.. be there...

i was told that we all have paths, you just seem to stuck to yours and you are actually doing it.. i feel so lost, i know what i wont, and where i wonna go.. i know how to get there. but what is holding me back? am i not strong enugh to handle the truth? the truth of what though, so many questions, so little time. *sigh*

i hate feeling down, i told me friend im happy depressed, he went huh? i said, happy at this world, depressed at myself for being me. people seem to make me out as something amazing.. i still have normal probelms you know! if i could find a girl, i would be happy..
im darn house at clairvoyancy. i cant hear spirit clearly. the only thing im really good at is, healing, telepathy, empathy and projection.. i mean like big whoop. grr, why do i feel like an unaware person is better than me. im so angry and torn up inside.
these past memories are haunting me now, so many. i asked for it now i got it. im happy for that, but i never relised how much pain it could bring. i would do it again, buts its so hard on the mind. everything i do is so stressfull to my mind and body, i just keep pushing and pushing.. were is the part were i fall down and break??

i was told by a spirit teacher on earth, that the only way to bring out the light and not attract things and not get attacked is to fill youself with love and faith.. i just wish i could shed all my shields, and stroll around in my pure form, i feel like i have out grown my body, this shell.
i ask for little, but i feel like i get nothing in return. a simple smile or thankyou.. i poor out my heart so manytimes, and they say thanks.. but you see them a few days later and there someone else. they changed like that..

that thing about the child is giving me a migrane, i keep wondering why, how, who??? no answers, nothing..

i need a good night sleep, and hopefully things will be better by morning.... i can only hope..

your friend..
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

i know its beena while, and i appolagise for that. Life atm has been odd, in a good way i should hope.

ive been getting alot of memeries, and its just like wow some of the time. the beautifull scenery, and the buildings.. there is one were the entire outside is covered in green vines with lushus leaves, ah. i could live there.

ive been having a lot of trouble at the temples. seems that some people were hunting me down. ive been hiding all over the place and i know some of my friends could see i was odd in RL.

people keep telling me that im pale and look unwell, im just over tired i think. im putting to much stress onmyself at the temples. but i feel that it is something i must to, in order to stay ahead.
ive had so many people tell me that if i need help to just ask. im just to proud to give in, and let people help me. even if its for a simple talk about things that are bothering me.
i talk to spirit sometimes, but i just dont know. im waiting for myself to crash and burn. i sleep over 8 hours a night, and i wake up tired and saw. sometimes more than when i went to sleep.

im trying to map out the temples and draw what i see, i bearly get time anymore. ill just keep trying to make an effort and hopefully things will work out ok.

im trying to learn channeling, and i can sorta do it. i know some of you have felt the diffrent energy when i type something to you. just so little time im afraid.

i was stading on the edge of the floating city, crystal city or cididal. i was dressed in all white, white robes etc. i had my angel wings out and my aura was white also.
it was after along time, and i was talking to colin as he was standing next to me. i looked out into the open and i could see the clouds and below it the temples all looking so perfect. i remember saying something like, 'just look at it all, its the most beautifull place'. everything just looked so perfect and brilliant, picture perfect. colin left, and night stalker my wolf friend walked up next to me and said "its nice to finnaly have you back". i smiled and said, yes it is.

there is so much happening, but i feel that its not important and some of it is for my eyes only. sometimes things are best kept a secret, untill the right time to speak.

i found out that im infact a master at the wolf temple, and the only 'alive' master. i know i teach at the school but the wolf temple also. there is now over 38,000 people who are awake and folling this path. i look at that number and agree why im so bloody tired.

my clairvoyancy is devolping really well. i can see much better now. sometimes its like i see in RL, so clear and detailed. i can see peoples faces and there eye colour, its really cool and it feels good to finnaly be able to see with so much clairity.

a friend that i know, she teaches at one of the temples. she seems mostly unaware of it, but i felt that i had to tell her. ive seen her teach also too.. she is a really smart, good looking girl. sometimes i just wish we didnt live so far apart. i would love the chance to meet her, even if its just once. maybe when i save enough money i will. its just a matter of time.

your friend
lonewolf

[lonewolf]

"Untill the day i die, i spill my heart for you"

makes you think alot when you say that fraze over and over thinking about who you care for.

Last weekend was a diffrent experince for sure. It started out in nothing harmful at all. A friend and i went to a mates house to say happy b-day to his mum, who in the past has done so much for us. we got there at 9pm, and found the house rather lacking a few things. For one, our friends and a cierten mum?? we found out that they left to go clubbing only a few moments befor we arrived. That wasnt the intereting partk, my friends g/f stayed home to do homework and look after the house. Went she ansered the door she was so scared, turns out this house is haunted..

This girl is particualy aware, but she can read anyone. She can tell you things about yourself that you have beearied for years and tried to forget about. she can look at anyone and read them like a book. I had an alterive motive to goto the house, as i knew she would be there. Basicly she told me things i already knew but wonte d to hear for myself, lol.. she didnt really like that when she found out, but meh you get that. My friend who i took along with me, is somewhat aware. He is empathic and i taught him energy manip and telekenises in about 2 hours. He isnt very psychic, well that he dosent know.

Ill scrap the details, and just be blunt.

there was alady who made noises and other non-sense like that. She had a dog, who turned out to be a demonic parasite. Some dude killed himself in the house, and i saw him haning from the cieling with a rope around his neck. There was a demon who looked like a ware, but thats not the point. ther was another neg, whos flesh was roting away and my friend saw him!!!..
the energy was all wrong and my arm was burning severly, i was tired and grupy.
i called in Michael a few times, and tried to calm down my friends g/f. the house was so uneven i couldnt even do tk!!...
i cleansed the house and everyone felt the tension ease alittle. i was suffering from chest and stomache cramps, everyone could feel it, stupid negs ,,I,,
i kept this effort of protecting and destroying for 7 hours, im suffering terably. i have hardly any energy even now, being wednesday. i have terable overlay and my arm has been burning scince saturday night. No matter how much i purge or cleanse, my arm still burns. i can think of a few posabilites, i now how a neg parasite *highly doubtful* just suffering from energy dehidtration and overlay. OR im becoming sensative to a spetaculare degree and i can pick on others neg emotions and other things.. i just wont it to stop hurting..

altho that was a somewhat diffrent experience in wich all i wonted to do was goto sleep, i wasnt even phased about negs and stuff. my friends thought other wise, i guess lucky i was there? i taught the g/f some leasons and how to ground and cleanse the field, same with my mate. i had some messages from the angels for the g/f, so hopeshe has learnt a few things.

It was basicly put like this, learn to use your element *water* on the physical plane, if you can controll water the world is in your hands.

It dosent matter what you are in spirit, the strongest or the master. what good is it when you cant do that here. you have little or no controll over your abilites.

you have to connect mind body and soul..

so, yeah... things i already knew, but needed to be told sorta thing.
since then i meditate each night, and do physical training 2-3 times a week.
meditation - mind
physical training - body
projection - soul?

Im trying to become the master in the physical, its not out of my reach. i seem to complicate everything, the answer is so simple that i fail to see or understand it. i know who iam in the astral/higher planes, i just dont know about in the physical. *so lost*

scince i've started ive grown at such a pase that most would be gaging, i know i have grown fast and have come so far. i think its time to take it to the next step, step up a lvl.

"untill the day i die, i spill my heart for you, for you"

your friend
MasterWolf